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Had you ever felt like you are out of this world insane even though you were told you are completely sane?

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Yeah, every day!

I am scared of being insane though. Everybody tells me I am not.

Aye! And I usually think of that as a good thing. Kind of a mad scientist.
I was a little worried a few times in the last year, though. I was having some experiences, that are difficult to describe. Visions. I was really concerned I might be schizophrenic for about a month. And the visions were coming true.
Weird, weird stuff.

Quite frequently. Seldom a day goes by when I'm not faced with how differently I function mentally from other people. It's as if all that separates me from having all the non-autistic people screaming and pointing at me is a paper-thin veneer of imitating normal behavior.

Yep, I do. People don't tell me I'm not, though - probably because seriously believing I have the soul of a dragon is enough to make them think I am, and that's just scratching the surface

I used to think I had brain damage when I was at secondary school, because the lessons weren't taught clearly enough for me so rather than blame them I thought I was just feeling very confused and having difficulty focussing. I also developed a problem following TV programmes, and I was aware that my short-term memory kept failing and impaired my capacity to think. A few years later I noticed that poor concentration was said to be a symptom of schizophrenia. I'd also seen a friend's behaviour after a "nervous breakdown," when he became very indecisive and didn't quite respond right to social greetings and attempts at conversation, and I saw myself in that behaviour, because I didn't seem to make quite the right responses either when I was with people, I felt like I was isolated in a bubble.

But I've never suspected myself of being delusional or a danger to self or others, it was purely a matter of whether my brain had a proper grip on things. I've always liked harmless eccentricity in people, so anything I did that seemed unusual, that was just my colourful character, which I figured was much more interesting and imaginative than just following convention.