I am clinically depressed again.
I finally broke down yesterday and sought help. I tried going to my local health clinic but they didnt have an appointment before the 19th. I then went back to school and spoke with a teacher, with whom i went to the nurse. The nurse called my mom (with my permission and with me in the same room). The nurse went to the local clinic with me and spoke with them. They recommended I be transferred to the ER at a bigger hospital. The nurse followed me to the tram stop where my mom was waiting for us. I went with my mom to the hospital.
I had to briefly explain my symptoms, or rather the extent of them to the receptionist, who decided i needed to see a doctor and not just a nurse.
We waited there for about an hour, I'm not sure.
I spoke with the doctor for about 15-30 minutes, I think. We went through my symptoms and their severity. He ended up diagnosing me with a moderate depression. I got prescribed the same antidepressant i had when i first was depressed a few years ago, Escitalopram. I requested to get antidepressants. I also got prescribed Ketipinor, an atypical antipsychotic, which is used to treat anxiety and panic attacks. Both drugs are familiar to me and are effective.
I am on and off again detached from my emotions. My mom, who I am living with until tomorrow (when i go to dad's), has been really respectful. Hasn't asked questions, other than "do you want to talk about it?" but not pushed when I've answered "no". Let's me be alone, doesn't bother me.
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Diagnosed with
F84.8 (PDD-NOS) 2014
F33.1 Major Depressive Disorder, recurrent, moderate.