auntblabby wrote:
I didn't get my one and only "GF experience" until I was in my 50s
which was too late. it did give me a taste of what I had lacked up until then. but I absolutely cannot handle another breakup. mebbe in the next life i'll manage to do better. I reckon most of y'all will do better.
That's what scares me a bit to be honest. I haven't been in a relationship and I'm thirty. More and more I'm starting to think that if it ever happens, if/when it ends, it would be too hard for me to deal that I would seclude even more. I'm not a person that someone gets to know easily. I've also thought seriously that maybe I'm not supposed to have someone, which saddens me.
but I also should mention I have a few good memories I can look back on and offer myself some comfort in trying times. I know my human limitations, I am the way god made me, it had to be for a definite reason that i'm the way I am. I know I try hard to practice the golden rule and be good to people who want me to be good to them. this keeps me from being sad.