I blew another chance

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I've been part of a meet up group that I attend on and off since 2016 but I've only managed just to make acquaintances and no true friends in the group.

Lately, the leader of the group has been hosting DnD games and I've actually joined in on the ones he has done so far. One of the people who joins in is a pretty glasses wearing girl. I've tried talking to her but as usual with the conversations I have with people, they don't last long. Before she left, I asked her if she was off tomorrow because we played DnD pretty late and she replied that being a school teacher, she never works on Saturday. She also said "Come on, Mark!" after she said that as if I said something silly and when I replied, I stammered in my speech. I felt like an idiot and she probably thinks I am a weird person now. I feel like I blew a chance to make a new friendship and I am truly doomed to loneliness until I die.

well, it's something.

how did you reply? (when you stuttered)

is she your age or not too far off?

I told her I used to work Saturdays but not anymore and I asked if maybe Summer school was different. Unfortunately, I made slight "Uh...uh"s when I talked. Fortunately, I didn't make a long and drawn out "Uhhhhhhhhhhh..." like I used to and especially what rednecks generally do but it still felt awkward and I've been told women find guys who give off that vibe to be "weird" at best or "serial killers in waiting" at worst.

She's a few years older than me but she looks like she's still in her 20's.

I doubt she thinks poorly of you. A little bit of social clumsiness can be attractive in a man because a man who may be a little clumsy from time to time has to be a little forgiving of himself and is probably a little forgiving of others as well. One of the few men I found myself attracted to won me over when he stepped backwards and tripped over a trashcan. It's the Woody Allen phenomena. Women were attracted to Woody Allen (before it became known that he's of low moral character) because the characters he played were a little socially and physically clumsy and that made him seem approachable. And your question wasn't really silly because teachers often have work to do outside of school hours, like grade papers and make up lesson plans. You didn't ruin anything yet, you are just being hard on yourself. Ask her out for coffee or something. If you aren't the greatest conversationalist, ask her out for some type of activity.

She thinks you’re cute.

Don’t be a fool and give up on this.

I suppose I can ask her out for coffee or something but I don't know if I should do it immediately or wait until I see her next time to do so.

^^ Hearty endorsement of what Chronos is saying. Marknis, she may think you are shy and cute, and that's the Holy Grail!

If you do it now, that will communicate to her the possibility that you might be interested in her as more than a friend. If you wait until next time, it's ambiguous.

My only real means of communicating with her besides the meet ups is through the message function on the Meet Up app. I sent her a message.

Good for you! That is very admirable.

Well, she hasn't responded so far.

Marnkis,
I would not beat myself up over this one. It sounds like you reached out and expressed your interest in her and she didn't respond though you let the ball fall in her court. The best you can do is say hello to her when you go to your D&D sessions.

Well, she's a teacher and she must understand speech problems, not be scared of them.

I suppose I can say I tried.

What did you say? NT guys always say sth stupid...

I just told her hi and asked how she was. I don't say stupid crap like "Someone call God because Heaven's lost an angel!" which a lot of NT guys in my area do.

I sometimes fear that friendships are becoming a thing of the past. People seem to just want to stick to the social circles they already have and aren't interested in making new connections. I didn't make any solid connections in my developmental years and I feel so far behind.