What part is AS and what part is trauma?

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I'm not sure if I have AS,ADD or what yet, as I haven't been diagnosed, but I think a lot of my problems are family related. Both my mom and dad suffer from mental illness (dad is worse off than my mom).
So, until recently, I have always tried to keep those things and other parts of my personal life a secret from outside people. So that, along with the anxiety of not fitting-in or relating to other people, and wanting everybody to like me have put a lot of stress on me.

I'm at a point in my life right now, that I don't really care what people think about me, and I'm starting to open up more to them.
What I'm starting to find out is, that the people that I thought had "perfectly normal" lives have problems of their own as well...although, probably not as many problems.
So, I think it helps to talk to people about it, and not keep things bottled up. You might even find someone that is nice and is willing to help you.

Thank you so much everybody for your contributions, I feel so much more connected to the world knowing i am not alone with this struggle, If you were all in London, I would suggest we all get together and form a support group.

I have been composing a letter to a Christian publication with re my journey to diagnoses, which I have called 'Stations to Diagnoses' The reason I have used the structure of the Stations of the Cross, is that I feel it is a near perfect imagery for non-AS people to enter into the suffering and courage it takes to travel through life for many people with AS.

In the case of Jesus as with many people like myself with AS, we can be condemned, not for our 'difference', but by others indifference to our way of being that seems not of this world.

much peace and love to you all from London
chris

I'm still not sure which part of my childhood caused or was caused by which of my three disorders (Autism, Gender Identity Disorder, Multiple Personalities...)

Interesting point! I've already commented, in another post, that maybe Jesus himself had AS, since he didn't regard rules about the social hierarchy... and believed that everyone deserves love, whether or not they are rich, educated, a particular race, etc.

By the way, I am reading Henri Nouwen's writing (Seeds of Hope), and he says something like this (I am paraphrasing): "The people who are not of this world are the ones who can do the most to bring peace to the world."

Good luck on your article. Sounds very interesting!