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f**k, I am almost 30 and I have missed out on so much.

I would like to say how in the past I did extensive morbid ruminations..including about forms of assisted death. I'll admit that one reason for which I'm 'afraid' about looking into suicide is because of what thoughts it might trigger within me about euthanasia.


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One of the most difficult things I ever did was reveal to an employment counselor or two about my past engagement and disengagement from my immersion in 'confessional culture'...the Catholic sacrament and then some.

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Dry, dry season.

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Let me just say, that I'm thankful for this space. Let me just say, that I realize how I very much have a potential to say scary stuff.

For instance there is a certain website where I have a journal where the 'main focus' is on bringing up my pornography addictions when it is not being used as a 'regular journal'.

I could write things that I otherwise would there onto here but I realize how disrespectful it is; the 'randomness' of this sub-thread is not unlike the experiences with being at a call center which I had which ended on Sunday.

Recent changes in life; not the least with engaging the mental health system.

I mean, I will admit that a part of me feels that maybe one reason I even bother to bring this up is because of how I crave attention. But even more importantly to me is the tendency to cease writing--an addiction which is going nowhere *at least for me*.

Roberto Bolano — 'For me, the word writing is the exact opposite of the word waiting. Instead of waiting, there is writing.'

That resonates with me; that resonates with me fully--I risk hyperbole, I risk lying in a way that I did not risk at a call center.

I have more important things to do in my life like focus on finding another job than trying to 'monopolize' a psycho-geographical/online space.

If anyone responds to this, is it 'self-demonstration'(?). I don't know nor is that too important.

My treadmill is now permanently stuck in the "incline" mode

I am willing to exchange my cell phone number with anyone who wants to talk with me or text with me.

If so, PM me and I will give you my number.

Socioautomatic..

Kitaro on Atwood.