first of all, STOP being ashamed.
why are you ashamed? for being different? awkward? if you were hitler, or some insane serial-killer then you should be ashamed.
you are who you are, and people really will let you be just that. its only your (negatively focused) self analysis that tells you that your noticeably different for everyone. if people walk right past - and ignore - flea-ridden beggars, or some shouting wacko in the park, they should surely let you be, for just being awkward.
just be yourself, then you can be sane
_________________
''In the world I see - you are stalking elk through the damp canyon forests around the ruins of Rockefeller Center.''