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Forum: Random Discussion Topic: What's on your mind right now? |
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I was at work today. My body is being weird, as usual the cycle is messing with it. To a point I ended up falling asleep. Except I'm faaaaaaar from annoyed. Still made too many mistakes. Difference is that... There's no guilt, there's no internal fights, there's no frustration. Even at the later par... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: NO ASD but social ineptitude in child with NVLD - possible? |
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Dyssemia. The very trait that impacts nonverbal cues. And NVLD impacts nonverbal processes. Thus how or why those with NVLD struggle socially. It's practically a core trait of NVLD that is easily mistaken for how ASD's nonverbal cues ineptitude (from a variant of cognitive profiles) or cognitive emp... |
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Forum: Bipolar, Tourettes, Schizophrenia, and other Psychological Conditions Topic: Say Something Random: psychological Conditions Version |
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I might... Lose a lot of overt stimming altogether. Because of how much crap to deal with that I'm losing in the process. I never cared about how I ever appeared while stimming. I just cared about the lack of unnecessary stressors. It just happened that... Solving the crap loses the stimming. :roll:... |
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Forum: In-Depth Adult Life Discussion Topic: What would your ideal/perfect day look like? |
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Posted: Yesterday, 9:11 am
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I'm not sure. Only that I'm living the best days I know so far at the moment. And if I wanted more... ... That would be me earning more than enough to survive on my own. Doesn't matter what job. -Wake up on time, actually feel refreshed and no rushing through a schedule. -Actually use said time to p... |
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Forum: Random Discussion Topic: Confession Thread |
Edna3362 |
Posted: 17 Jun 2025, 7:03 pm
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I still am living in an aimless life. Yet to make a big decision. Yet to fully live the way I want. So far, I've only been existing the way I wanted to be -- I longed to be, since it's very fundamental that I should have it before doing things beyond that. But I have not done anything beyond that yet. |
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Forum: Random Discussion Topic: What's the last weirdest dream you had? |
Edna3362 |
Posted: 17 Jun 2025, 5:32 pm
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That I got my cravings back. That I slid back to the old habit.
I somewhat lost it last week in real life. |
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Forum: Random Discussion Topic: What's on your mind right now? |
Edna3362 |
Posted: 17 Jun 2025, 5:33 am
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Ever since I turned 30, everyday feels like it's Sunday for me.
Edna3362 (May 28, 2025) wrote: Why does the last 2 days to me still feel like it's still Sunday...?  This hadn't ended. It still does.
Even if the day after or is the day of work, doing nothing, a hectic trip... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Autistic families and autistic individuals in NT families |
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Posted: 15 Jun 2025, 8:39 pm
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The only autistic I know in my family was my paternal cousin's son and that distant cousin in my maternal side somewhere. A few ND cousins here and there... Like no more than 3. Said cousins likely have ND relatives themselves because those stuff mainly came from in-laws. Neurodivergence or/and ment... |
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Forum: Random Discussion Topic: What's on your mind right now? |
Edna3362 |
Posted: 14 Jun 2025, 3:40 pm
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Maybe it's one of the effects of my wish to never spiral. For me to catch myself from stress induced inanity, snacks was one of the few avenues I knew. And I'm talking about decades of ingained habit since childhood. Stuff I rely on comfort to a point it has recklessly gotten me broke a few times no... |
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Forum: Random Discussion Topic: What's on your mind right now? |
Edna3362 |
Posted: 14 Jun 2025, 3:25 pm
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Nothing much. Just a weird week of losing cravings for sugary stuff all the sudden. Don't know how much of this is hormones being utterly confusing as usual or a delayed subconscious calling. It's day 6. Just as stressed out if not more, but zero urge to snuck and binge. Usually if I am this stresse... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Masking = not masking!? |
Edna3362 |
Posted: 13 Jun 2025, 4:55 pm
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I can distinguish the two terms of the same looking outcomes. I translate very, very often -- which is why I hate words and wording and get very disappointed very often. But not mask. I don't need to put a smile to convey happiness, not put a smile to pretend I'm fine, nor had to do so to express am... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: What do you hate the most about having autism/aspergers ? |
Edna3362 |
Posted: 12 Jun 2025, 11:32 pm
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Mine is just a matter of profile preference. Not cognitive, but emotional. I never like the fact that I did not get the type of autism with alexithymia, preferably that has little to no affective empathy to put up and regulate -- since there's no strong enough executive function to compensate into c... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Can you "feel" loved by another? |
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Posted: 11 Jun 2025, 10:14 pm
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Yes. And it's more subtle. It's safer in a higher way that had nothing to do with familiarity, but of understanding, inclusion and acceptance. Quieter. Compared to, say, attachment. Which is somewhat suffocating and unnecessarily reenacting. Familiar at best, no matter how dysfunctional. Sometimes p... |
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Forum: Random Discussion Topic: What's on your mind right now? |
Edna3362 |
Posted: 11 Jun 2025, 4:28 am
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Another stupid cycle.
Another age old unwanted internal processing to kill.
Another stormy season. |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: Do you feel like a burden? |
Edna3362 |
Posted: 09 Jun 2025, 9:51 pm
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Looking back -- I had developed hyperindependence. I feel more disappointment towards anyone than shame towards myself. It makes being dependent or relying on anyone feels like a gamble. An unpredictable variant. I have zero trust on. A shaky foundation to ever put any intent on. I just want to be r... |
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Forum: General Autism Discussion Topic: What Do You Enjoy Most About Being Autistic |
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Posted: 08 Jun 2025, 9:56 pm
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Being an admin to an operating system that does not think for me. But then, I've yet to be competent enough to handle it elegantly, however. Not everyone can use the autism toolkit to deep dive into being a human and humanity. I may be one of those end users who just happened to want the challenge. ... |
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