Hi there, I'm new here and pretty anxious

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BoundlessMind_32
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09 Nov 2024, 10:57 am

Hi there,

I've registered like 10 minutes ago and I've thought I can come and say hello. I was thinking about joining in for a few months, but every time my heart started racing and my hands were shaking like crazy. My constant companion, social anxiety, and I are always together.

I always knew I was different from other kids but didn't understand why. Why did I enjoy staying at home instead going outside? Why I couldn't make any friends? How so other kids appeared to be normal and I wasn't? I have started noticing signs only few years back. I struggle with social interaction. I can't look people in the eyes for more than a one second. My colleauges say that our work routine are slowly killing them from inside, but I thrive on that routine and that i enjoy them at home too. I lack interests in others and more than keeping. Small talk is my nemesis.
For a long time, I thought I was alone with my struggles or my struggles weren't valid. My parents always said to me that I have to suck it up and push through which I've come to realize did more damage than good. The never looked into my experiences, and now I am already in my thirties and I find myself shying away from people more and more.
While searching online, I discovere that I'm not alone. There are people out there with the same sturggles who might finally understand and relate to my experiences.
So, I've come here to say hello. :)



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09 Nov 2024, 12:20 pm

Hi there, I'm also new here so you're not alone in this! :)
I feel the exact same way as you do about work things. When I got my first office job, I realised that small talk was the only way for me to go about getting to know my colleagues and I hated it. Didn't help that I was the youngest in the office. The routine and knowing exactly what to do and when to go was the best part of it.
You've got this! Props to you for joining, this looks like a nice place for everyone.



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09 Nov 2024, 2:00 pm

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09 Nov 2024, 2:58 pm

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09 Nov 2024, 3:02 pm

Welcome to Wrong Planet! I hope you enjoy it here.


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09 Nov 2024, 3:05 pm

Hi BM and welcome to WP



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09 Nov 2024, 4:38 pm

Welcome to WP! I hope you find it helpful.


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09 Nov 2024, 5:10 pm

Hello and welcome! I’m new here too and have found it comforting and empowering knowing that I am not alone. I am still struggling and growing, but reading through posts has been helping me.

I hope you find support here, too!



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10 Nov 2024, 3:51 am

Double Retired wrote:
Welcome to WP! I hope you find it helpful.

Hi there. Champagne huh? That's pretty fancy. Thank you for warm welcome. I hope I have finally found the place where I can come and be at ease without judging or personal attack.



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11 Nov 2024, 9:09 am

Hi PoundlessMind_32, Welcome to Wrong Planet.

You wrote, "I can't look people in the eyes for more than a one second."
I also have this trait. I do not make direct Eye to Eye contact but always look a little off to one side.
I actually figured out a solution to this problem by preventing people from looking into my eyes by wearing a special type of one way glasses. I wrote in another thread a few days ago about these glasses.

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Not_Crazy_Just_Not_You, Welcome to Wrong Planet.

You wrote, "I have been called selfish, arrogant, condescending, narcissistic, an A-hole, and probably a bunch of other things behind my back."

Let me try and explain this, at least from my viewpoint. I do not make eye to eye contact. When I lock at a person I do not look directly into their eyes but rather a little off to one side. Most (neurotypicals) NTs will look directly into the eyes of the person they are talking with. But if you are like me, they will see someone looking off to one side and they will immediately conclude:

This person is a liar, evil, false, stay away from him.

I actually tested this theory a few years ago. I purchased a pair of special one way glasses and wore them in town. These are the same type of glasses that traffic cops used when driving. It prevents people from looking directly into their eyes and making a quick judgement of how the policeman would react. So I went about town wearing these special sunglasses. What happened was unreal. Total strangers would come up to me and begin conversations. This had never happened to me before, and I was amazed.

I have poor eyesight so I wear prescription glasses. So in my case when I went to order a pair of prescription sunglasses, I just asked my optometrist and he ordered me a pair.

Doing a quick scan on the internet, I believe they are referred to as polarized mirrored sunglasses.

Polarizing and mirror coats are independent things, you can have one without the other. Polarizing blocks all horizontal light preventing dazzling effects (which is reflected light from things like the water surface or shiny metal) and mirror coating reduces the light transmission into the lens even further than the tinting of the lens on its own would (making the image you see darker).

When I wear this type of sunglasses, someone on the outside might try to look through the glasses and cannot see my eyes. All they see is a mirror refletion. But from the inside, I can see quite clearly. There is some lowering of light that enters my eyes but most people normally have their eyelids closed a little and I just open them a little wider automatically to let in a little more light. That is why I can wear this type of sunglasses indoors.

The other benefit is that when I wear the glasses outdoors, it eliminates any glare. So outdoors my vision is much better also.

It improves my vision and at the same time eliminates people from knowing that I am not looking them directly into their eyes. And the strange result is when I wear these polarized sunglasses I enter the world of NTs.

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You wrote, "Small talk is my nemesis."
Yes same here. I am direct and to the point. It is actually a benefit.

You wrote, "For a long time, I thought I was alone with my struggles or my struggles weren't valid. My parents always said to me that I have to suck it up and push through which I've come to realize did more damage than good. The never looked into my experiences, and now I am already in my thirties and I find myself shying away from people more and more."
In reality, you are not alone and there are many people like you, but they live in the corners of society. I had gained a few friends in the 76 years I have lived on Earth and I had found a couple good friend, lifetime friend. They had characteristics just like me. So if you can search for them and open your eyes you may actually find them. They will be somewhat like yourself.


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12 Nov 2024, 7:22 pm

Welcome to Wrong Planet! :)


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12 Nov 2024, 8:26 pm

Welcome .. to Wrong Planet..


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13 Nov 2024, 7:53 am

welcome, you are not alone.


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13 Nov 2024, 8:17 am

Welcome to WP! :alien:



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13 Nov 2024, 8:51 am

Welcome. I understand how you feel. I hope that communicating with folks here will be helpful to you and that you will stick around.



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14 Nov 2024, 4:44 am

bee33 wrote:
Welcome. I understand how you feel. I hope that communicating with folks here will be helpful to you and that you will stick around.


I hope so too. But to be honest, I am not good at keeping an interest for long. I mean I will always come back, but it can be weeks, or months