Admiration

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I am curious how common this behavior is among other people who have Asperger's syndrome. When I accomplish something that I feel was worthwhile and produced a result that I feel is good, I often end up admiring it for a few minutes. If I write something I think is funny, insightful, entertaining, or eloquent, I might reread it a few times. If I create an aesthetically pleasing Web design, I will frequently visit the webpage for a while just to look at it for a little while.

This doesn't happen often because I don't create as much as I probably should; but, when I somehow get myself to follow through and make something, this tends to happen. I rarely feel this sense of admiration for work I have been forced to do as classwork or the like, especially if my heart and soul, figuratively speaking, aren't in it.

Who else does this?

Oh, I do that, too. I remember a science fair once that I entered all on my own in elementary school...I spent months learning about electricity and I eventually got my dad to let me wire something togther. And then I got to junior high where the science fair was mandatory, and I did some stupid thing on aerodynamics in about twenty minutes three days after the stupid thing was due. I still have my fourth grade project, but the sixth grade project I didn't even bother to take home.

The same thing with writing. When I write something of my own volition, I will reread it multiple times, keep it, and possibly post it online or show it to my mother and/or friends. But if I am forced to write something, I don't even do my best.

I wonder why that is.

Yes, I do it all the time, and why not? If you've produced something that pleases you, it's worth being pleased by.

What I don't understand is why I then, for a long time, shelve it in embarrassment. It hasn;t changed; evidently I have.