Hey all, found this forum from the loads of finding information on AS that I did (you know, that's how I roll - finding everything out about something that interests me). My fiancé told me about a video on Autism Spectrum that she watched and noticed a lot of things that fit me, and could explain a lot about me. I already deal with anxiety, depression, and a psychiatrist said I'm ADHD. I get intensely into a certain thing for a while, then move onto something else, usually without forgetting what I've learned. Luckily one of those interests usually involve technology which makes me good at my job - except for the whole getting sidetracked thing or the sometimes not being able to focus.
So many things from my life are starting to fall into place - these things usually had some other bad explanation. They are starting to make more sense - such as the whole not doing the whole small talk, being bad at relationships, geeking on things while ignoring other aspects of life, not talking until I was 3 1/2 years old (parents thought it was because I had a deaf older sister). etc etc etc etc.
I'm thinking of going to a specialist on these things so they can evaluate me, in hopes of getting better treatment. Right now I'm at a point where anxiety and inability to focus is starting to kill me - I think it's because at 33 I'm finally getting married and that forces me to not ignore certain parts of life and I don't get as much time to geek on what I need to.
I don't see AS as a bad thing, but can be explanation for certain aspects of myself which I can try to workaround instead of trying to "fix" - which just makes things worse.
14 Aug 2012, 11:25 am
