Hi... So I'm really rather nervous about joining this site because although I have no diagnosis of ASD I am on the referral list, and to be quite frank I have so many of the signs it would be one hell of a set of coincidences for me not to be. I joined here because... I'm worried, worried that ASD will rob me of the things I really wanted in life, rob me of the chance that I ever will cope with things others take for granted, and rob me of ever being able to truly see eye-to-eye with my family and friends. I'm not saying ASD are automatically bad, but they sure are hard to live with when you're expected to live like everyone else. I've often said I feel like an alien the mothership dropped off and forgot to pick back up, so when I saw the name of this place it really got to me.
I don't want to go on and on about my autistic traits, I'll wait to see the referral team about that, but I have always been the weird one in my family and social circle, and for the most part that's fine by me. I don't want to be normal, but when you're called cold frequently because you struggle to show affection or are just "too honest" for others' liking, it hurts. Add that with my (diagnosed) depression and anxiety and you get a neurotic mess. I can be a really enthusiastic and bouncy person, and I generally have a good relationship with my friends and family, but social interaction in general (even if I like someone!) is utterly exhausting after a while. People just don't seem to understand how hard it is just to act (that's all it ever is) socially acceptable, day in, day out, not to mention also holding down a job (I've just been laid off, currently looking), doing housework, socialising and the rest of it.
Now all the depressing crap's out of the way, a little about me. As you may have guessed I love Subaru Imprezas, but I love all cars and vehicles in general to an obsessive degree. My life literally revolves around cars, and my car (Saxo) eats most of my little savings. He's had a lot of issues and we're still fixing them, but we're getting there, maybe even to the extent of being able to continue modifying next year. I also have a Beemer (316i) but I can't afford his insurance yet :/ I love my babies dearly <3 Still intend to get an Impreza one day though! I love modification, can't ever keep a car stock, and I love going to car shows (modded and classic especially), drag racing and drifting. Driving is probably my favourite pastime and best way to cope with life ever.
I also love nature, animals (canids, corvids and birds of prey especially), phylogeny, genetics, geology and fossils (I hunt and collect; anything that lived in or before the mesozoic is a yay, especially dinosaurs), and I have a thing for watching documentaries and weird stuff (love weird weather, mutant things and the downright creepy/bizarre). I have a pet dog (German Shepherd/Rottweiler x Border Collie) and currently three adult snails with fourteen babies (C. nemoralis, or Grove/Brown Lipped Snails). I also have several worms in the garden I feed and quite a few nematodes that have invaded my snail tank!
I'm a little bit obsessed with the supernatural; I love Supernatural, Being Human and watch Most Haunted and Ghost Hunters regularly :s My original characters are all supernatural too... I do write, and occasionally doodle, usually angsty, depressing, violent crap I won't subject the world to!
That was longer than I intended, apologies
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