Nervy, anxious, confused and sad

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I decided yesterday to go back to my old College that is a sixth form College, but I think I've decided against this idea, because I don't think this will really progress me.

I don't want to go to the main College in the area because I don't like the whole vibe about it.

I feel a bit torn too because I've been in this miserable state and situation for ages - at the internet without any real contact of human life, mental health worsening and no work ethic due to a feeling of no hope.

I feel sad. I talked to my ex girlfriend tonight and nostalgia made me want to be with her again...

I need to sleep but there's a lot on my mind and my body isn't relaxing.

As for College situations, I don't really know what to do.

I do need to get out of this house as quickly as possible and have some things happen for me.

You could tell your college about the situation and perhaps do a trial run of a week or two to see if you want to continue for the whole year?

you could also try meds for anxiety/depression ....not for everyone..and they have side effects....but they made a big difference for me in uni....

Sammtoo,

It sounds like you are experiencing some serious problems in your life right now. I would suggest the following. First, see your doctor and tell him or her what you just told us in this thread. Let the doctor know details about what you experience on a daily basis, what your routines are, and why you have difficulty returning to school despite clearly wanting to do so. Although I am not qualified to diagnose you, it sounds like you may be suffering from major depressive disorder, which can have serious consequences for your life. A doctor should be able to at least get you pointed toward some resources, such as a psychiatrist, or a therapist, who can help you deal with what you're feeling. While I know you want to go to college, you will probably perform better there if you first take the time to deal with how you're feeling now. Good luck.

Please contact your local psychiatry practice about said condition and the proper treatment....


No, just kidding with you.

But seriously, you should think about it as an option.

Personally, I've dealt with that false contentment of romantic nostalgia by trying to shift my lifestyle around. It can be hard for us aspies but slowly taking a new hobby or adding in one more regiment toward your schedule, your life will rapidly start changing for the better.

I've taken up exercising with the goal of becoming an elite Army Ranger. Silly, given my somewhat distaste for authority and structure, but I've noticed I've gotten stronger and faster and more mentally agile. I can do things I've never been able to do before and I like this feeling. I'm thinking I feel like Peter Parker (think nerdy guy) when he first became Spiderman (oh yeah..).

And more recently, I've had these slight body quakes where I can feel the anxiety shaking within me. It was like body palpatations, non-good vibrations but it motivated me to keep on the edge. And exercising was and still is the best way to tranquilize this feeling for me.

"Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom". I think Kierkegaard said that. It ain't exactly so bad.

Best of luck, if nothing good occurs, you still have us.

Seriously, you do.

The main problem with my depression and confusion I find is just the memory of my ex girlfriend and the horrible loneliness at night.
I do not know who I am half the time either - I feel like I'm going to cause massive problems to people, and I feel prejudiced and horrible.
I feel uncomfortable when problems happen because it feels like some kind of conscience is trying to mess me around... or the world, people or just simply some kind of presence for the rock is invisibly saying "Nothing you can do about this - you have to feel pain"
I miss having something to look forward to at the night time and night has become something I dread these days, and I don't go to bed at good hours.

I am now looking forward to the idea of College in fact.

kraken, I don't think I have a major depressive disorder but perhaps there is something going on, and perhaps you are right - I do feel so inbalanced sometimes and anxious.