Fifty pounds
it's december 19 and human resources still hasn't called me in thus far.
i do not know if they are going to call me in after the busy holiday season, or after june 25. or maybe human resouces will never bother me again. home depot so f*****g disorganized, dirty, and dangerous. it's like it's own massive havoc wreak chaos solar system. f**k the stupidass day laborers s**t. did they just sneak over the border and hitchhike to home depot? the day laborers do not work @ home depot. why and how does the home depot tolerate all those ass holes loitering around, all day, every f*****g day? plenty of times, i was sitting outside a building for a couple minutes (trying to make a phone call, eating, WTF ever, not bothering anyone, and there is just one of me, s**t!) (rolls eyes) and some self righteous idiot had the nerve to come "shoo" me away, like i was a stupidass stray dog.
human resources said the doctor's form was good for six months.
ASM AC said that the doctor's form was good for 12 months.
the form asked the doctor how long the form was good for, and the doctor wrote 12 months.
in september i was applying for jobs. just random jobs. i do not know how to even look for jobs that are not just random jobs. retail sales. delivery driver BS. got a couple job interviews. went to a couple job interviews, but the vast majority of them way too f*****g far away from my jail, to go to. no car. public transportation not that bad, but almost all jobs way too f*****g far away. even minimum wage dumpster fire "jobs". s**t! besides, the entire state is "at will" employer, so even if someone made the mistake of hiring my worthless corpse, they could still gimmie the pink slip the third day. many companies have probation periods, or WTF ever.
it just takes too much time, $$$ and energy to take public transportation all the way to the stupidass job interview on my days off. esp since i am always f*****g exhausted and do not feel like interacting with anyone, s**t. besides, on days off, usually take a nap 2 hours after waking up. have to catch up on sleep on my days off.
besides, high school swim coach Cal, and my sister's high school classmate's mom, Mrs. S.U., said that it is "good" that i have a job. yes, i know not all impacts are immediate, visible, physical, or obvious. cal and mrs SU have lowfuck expectations/standards. and they do not know enough about the situation to know that it is "good". and they are judgmental and condescending. but WTF ever b/c they said that it's "good" that i have a job.
been waiting to get made redundant, before looking for the next retardedass "job". s**t.
panhandling and prostituation
government benefits
It's December 24 and human resources still hasn't called me in this far
Christmas day and 12/26, not scheduled to work
Today did not have to load anything
But has to drag around backpack: lunch, book, umbrella, other cheap s**t
Back kind of sore today
Been slouching too much lately
Hate how my sitting height is the same sitting height as men one foot taller than me
s**t
Maybe I will get made redundant on Friday s**t
Constantly waiting for the other show to drop
s**t
today is january 20, 2025. innauguration day. martin luther king day.
thus far, human resources has not bothered me about the 50# letter.
when i am @ work i am constantly afraid that human resources will come bother me.
on the other hand, there is no way to know when (or even whether) human resources will bother me.
the entire stupidass home depot: dangerous, dirty, rude, disorganized. disaster waiting to keep happening. s**t.
on the other hand, home depot first put me on "leave of absence" on june 25, 2024. human resources told me that the doctor's note was valid for six months. it is now over six months later. on the other hand, the second longest job i had: 5 months long, age 18, cashier, Tuesday Morning. so what the flying f**k ever. even if i were to have been able to trick another company into hiring my worthless corpse on june 25, 2024, the next boss might've already had the nerve to make my worthless corpse redundant, s**t.
s**t!
f**k home depot!
home depot should've:
(1) put "lift 100#" in the job description
(2) asked if you can lift 100# at the job interview
(3) lifting test, before job offer and every four weeks thereafter
but the job description just says "50#", even though plenty of merchandise, such as litterboxes, much heavier.
then i have to go around begging dumb ass holes like Marquice to "please" lift it for me. and then that idiot had the nerve to bark @ me "are you helping me or am i helping you?". then another idiot, lot attendant justin had the nerve to tell me "i am not a slave". f**k those self righteous lil dipshits. the training videos say that all employees required to help with loading, but they do not, and nothing happens to them.
then the customer's barking @ me b/c i'm taking too long to find someone to lift it. ("why do you work here?" @ least two customers had the nerve to ask me.)
and i feel ashamed/useless b/c i am too physically weak. and then the other employees overreact b/c they think they're doing "my" work for me and i am not doing "their" work for them. (rolls eyes)
still haven't gotten made redundant thus far s**t
it is now feb 6, 2025
and the schedule says i work full availability until march 2
the thing is, even if i start looking for a job, i won't know when i will be able to start another job.
home depot might fire me tomorrow, another day, or not @ all.
"beautiful oblivion"
with so many unknowns, you can't make plans, s**t