What’s on your mind? The Haven version.

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^^^^ Sorry TP , ^^^^...
Holidays can be a hard time ..

Had a bad meltdown last night. Just still recovering. I feel terrible about it. I was very upset about something. I threw things and felt really out of it and was shaking the whole night. I wish I didn't have them. Now I just feel shame and regret. I don't know how to communicate with my family sometimes. It was so bad they think I need to move out somewhere I can get better support. They're at work a lot.

The hardest part of my life has been watching friends hit milestones and move on with their lives and I just don't

It just didn't happen and now I'm watching the same thing happen at home

My daughter is growing into a lovely confident adult and I'm still a child

It's kinda lonely in a way

^ Not everyone is going to have the same human experiences of hitting milestones at a certain time, bb.

Whilst it may be difficult to endure seeing family members who are younger than you, surpass you in some ways, you can still be proud of yourself.

Thanks man

Hang in therei crystal....meltdowns happen.....just not so great if others see it happen...

Hitting milestones BB ....was never aware of milestones I was suppose to learn.....So at my age .. am not sure if I ever got to make it to any type of social milestones ....Good luck in your situation.... am glad your vhild is ptogressing ..!

It's strange though because I also feel like I've been around for about a million years

I have always gone with the flow, without any desire to possess or pursue anything. Being in the top 50% of the class is the way of life I am used to.

After entering college, the order completely changed. There was no direction, no supervision, and no ranking. I spent college in a long period of boredom. I felt uncomfortable and couldn't explain what the bad feeling was. I thought my life state was terrible, and I was terrible in this state. I threw my life away like an alcoholic.

If you ask me what kind of life I want, I don't know. I don't like physical pain, from hunger, cold, and illness, that's all.Maybe, I want to go back to kindergarten and want my parents to buy me toys after school.This is the best life I can imagine.

I was kind of bored and weak, and I was a little disappointed in myself.

What's on my mind?

How a solitary person can claim trouble where no trouble exists, and other people will believe them at face value.

I'm glad you're here Fnord

How to avoid persons chasing me through the threads ,i contribute too...With what appears to be some sort of retaliation type of revenge . Against other people whom post on WP, Maybe , I dont understand love/ hate relationships