Brian0787 wrote:
I have some trauma surrounding death and think I need to find a good therapist to process it with. I found out my cholesterol on Friday is high at 244. It's been scaring me some. I need to make some changes but it's hard when you just aren't used to eating certain foods. I've had those issues since childhood and change is very difficult. I stress eat alot. I am going to have to make some hard changes. I'm scared of what the future may hold if I don't get a handle on it. I'm supposed to see a new Psychiatrist Monday and am hoping it might lead to some positive things.
I hope things improve for you, Brian. I had a health check up 2 months ago and I was relieved to be ok.
However, I have for the most part stopped strenuous exercise since turning 40. I am sure I will eventually get back into a routine of running or another form of exercise but for now I am only walking. 30 minutes at a minimum per day and sometimes an hour or longer. I also did 100 pushups the other day and felt ok despite not doing any for a number of weeks.
It gets very, very cold where I live. It will be -24C in the morning tomorrow and -32C on Monday morning.
As a result I find myself staying inside much more. I drink more coffee too as a result. Normally I limit myself to a single coffee in the morning, but now I find myself having 2 and then sometimes another one in the afternoon or early evening.
I went to a walk in counselling session today. I'm fortunate that I live close to the counselling services and can go to address my concerns and get things off my chest. I likely would not be utilizing counselling if I had more people to talk to.
Isolation is the primary reason I go.
I try to eat healthy though sometimes I eat more than I should. I ate an entire large 3 topping pizza yesterday. That's a lot of calories and sodium. Today I bought more fruits and vegetables. I ate a healthy wrap with eggs and vegetables as well as a clove of broccoli that I fried. I think I might try to aim for a clove of broccoli every other day.
I have a goal and that keeps me optimistic about the future. My goal of course is to get my tv script sold and into development. I took some steps to pitch producers via a networking website recently. I eagerly await their response.
I've basically convinced myself that my project will become a reality and a success.
I also had a television show indicate they'd be willing to play an original piano piece of mine when I reached out to them.
It isn't a popular program, but it still would be exposure. At the same time, I don't have a video recording of myself playing the piece. Only audio. I used to have a video recording from many years ago but lost the file.
To re-record the song when I've already done so in the past isn't something I'm ecstatic about. Because I'm not sure there is any monetary gain even if I do get my song played on television (there may be a small royalty because it's my original composition) I'm not as determined to follow through and video record myself playing the song I once previously recorded.
06 Feb 2025, 10:38 am
