i am doing better but still not really any real improvement

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Your welcome.

yw

i had my party

it was good

dindnt last as long
i would have liked

my mom got upset
she had blamed me for bieng in my situation and said you dont blame me(actually said if i emulated my dad i would have no problems,wtf)
before hadn and made like she was going storm off and leave
i told her fine go
and she was sitting in the lobby, except she couldnt leave becaue i accidently locked myself out
and she apologize

the party went well although its pretty much my b day soon and noone said anything to me about it and we didnt sing happy bd

there we upset at me making then tea(parents)

butv the tea calmed them down

mostly now there just stresssed

she cried all that night

she knows she ruined her son
that she is on the hoook for taking care of me
and she even said she is repsonsible for me(earlier)

but its obvious she gone back on everything she learned the consceinceness she had been starting to developed

so sorry to here that

Hi Nightbender. Your birthday is soon? Happy birthday from me. My birthday was November 1. I guess we are both Scorpios?

thanks


you too


well actually we are not scorpios anymore
the sighns shifted a while ago

we are both ophicus

i had my party
the other day
it went well

the other thing though is
my mom couldnt turn on the radio
the radio was clearly labeled


other day my mom was taking me to park
i said i wasnt really in controll of my life or had that much controll
and she scared me by saying the kinda stupid crap she and my dad had said i was liitle
whos controlling you whos controlling your life
thats just bad thinking and really immoral two


my dad picked me up for the group
i go to for some reason
he started telling me he regretted having kids
he then blamed me and my brother saying saying if he had known we couldnt have taken care of ourselfs he wouldhnt had us
think about that for sec

the a**holes mind works like a reptile
thinks if your born one way thats the way you gonna be for the rest of your life and no change or improvement is possible
and certainly nothing like parenting would change anything or anything like taht
and it would mean that they expected little kids aspie or not to act like complete grownups

the other things i remeber is that they always tried dragged hypothetical persons into discussions/arguments
what would the neighboors think/thats God punishing(stubbed my toe)/noooo doctor would agree with you/whos controlling you/threateing me with police as a kid

how you been glider
gongrads on your bday

thanks so much

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NIGHTBENDER AND GLIDER18!!

I'm so sorry your birthday did not go so well nightbender. And I'm sorry your parents are not treating you well. they should be treating you with respect and certainly not threaten you or saying god is punishing you.

My back is doing better. all the walking at Disney helped it. so its not so bad.

I just hope your doing ok. keep us posted.

Thank you Nightbender and Just-me. These birthdays come along quite fast anymore it seems. So much has happened since my last birthday---my diagnosis and discovery of myself. And one of my sons was also diagnosed with AS this past summer.

I can't stress enough how much I want you to find your happiness and pathway in life Nightbender. It will happen. You have definitely had a challenging road, but it will get better. I didn't feel more comfortable with myself until my AS diagnosis at the age of 44---so it can take time to find yourself. At least you know about AS in your life---you are still young.

Best wishes my friend,
glider18

that was stuff long ago

with god punishing you thing

my mom is better but she reverted to what was not helpful

though they do keep saying i did this to myself

im going out tonight and bowling

heres there thing

they give me things stuff buy stuff and some how think that makes up for or is a substitute for bad conduct and irresponsilbity
ex

yesterday i went to go vote

my dad picked me up to drive a couple hours
but while i was with him he telling me that if he had known before hand that he would had children that could not take care of of themselves he wouldnt have had them
again blaming me(also shows how his mind works thinks like a reptile, if your born or certain way your gonna be that way forever and no change or improvement is possible, that no parenting could change, and there fore if your not born perfect you must be mentally ill

so yeah it was great that he went out his way to take me somewhere but still was a jerk


thank you

i got a great gift today

i got my acces link(disablity transit) appeal and the interview was knocked out of the park
and most likely gonna get it


i went out with father and brother bowling it was ok

family went out to dinner
the converstation went nowhere

bro got upset and left early
i wasnt enthused

mom was crying


at dinner mydad claimed that he researched stuff to help me
he did not

he sat on his but and did nothing

at dinner she said why dont you take an antidepressant if your so depressed, they have that many side effects(wrong), she has learned nothing
i was descrbing a problem with my brain being messed up and she said that stupid commet
im not depressed my brain is trashed

and before hand i metioned to my bro that i wasnt sure if i had taken my morning supplements and might have taken the pm instead to wich he said its all basically the same stuff
wich is wrong and also means he has not learned anyhting(he callls it vooodoodo) am and pm each contain a diffferent prescription medication wich has to be taken at the right time and cant be doubled up on and the naturals are also way different a


at dinner i was trying to talk about some stuff i was interested in to the best of my ability and my brother just decided to start making up crap about what i was talking about and just saying what i was saying in a mocking tone like that disproved it

and off course mom started saying that dont like certain talk show hosts wich i havent listend to in several years and who not pretty obvious now as full of it
though going through them was part of my progression(nohter obvious problem they have no sense of "time" no time urgency no ability to rember things in a proper order, what ever she can remeber is randomdly jumbled)

i said before going out ot dinner was problally not idea

it was good but

getting older being like this not good

thanks