Luther64 wrote:
... being referred to in an almost sentimental tone as "the little drunken mistake" for 13 years of my existence. I have a mother who is so obsessed with christianity that she stripped me naked and tied me to a shabby wooden cross during a thunderstorm when I denied the existence of god, a father who is so drunk most of the time that he struggles to remember my name and punches me in the stomach for no fathomable reason every single day, an NT sister who fakes asperger's to get whatever she wants and another NT sister who slaps me and regularly gives me cigarette burns.
Well if they were true Christians they wouldn't call you that, and strapping you to a cross won't prove anything (if God was real he'd probably just smite your terrible family). Yes, your family is still your family but what the hell man! These guys are treating you like sh*t! Your mum is just bat sh*t crazy, your dad abuses you, one sister sounds like a whiny b*tch and the other abuses you as well. Move out, you don't need to put up with this. Find a foster home or a carer or something, or maybe try to move in with Max? Another thing is you could run away. This is probably not the most sensible thing to do but at least they would be out of your hair, or just be home as least as possible (I used to do this. I'd just go to the pub until very late then come home and leave before everyone else. Of course, you can't go to the pub at 13 but there could be somewhere? Have a think) Do you have extended family you could live with or tell what's going on? You need to tell someone. Even someone at the school. You are a very strong guy for putting up with this for so long.
Luther64 wrote:
I used to hang out with him every day, but mother forbids me because he is an atheist. The only time I see him now is at school and today, mother told me she was trying to find me another school to keep me away from "demons" such as him. I've been curled up and crying uncontrollably on my bedroom floor for the past hour.
That is bad. Your mum can't control you like this. She is using her religion as an excuse. Even if she forces you to move schools, Max isn't going anywhere, and you can still keep in touch with him (email/facebook I dunno, but there are a lot of ways of keeping in touch these days)
Luther64 wrote:
The reason I ask if am a psychopath is that I have been having recurring dreams about slitting their throats one by one and what's more disturbing is that they make me happy. So happy. I've even been told that I laugh in my sleep. Max says it's perfectly natural but I'm not so sure. I have just been soooooo depressed lately and I really need some help here.
No. Definitely not a psychopath. The best psychopaths are the ones which make it feel like it's your fault and this is what they're doing to you. It is not your fault. When I was going through a rough patch in high school with this group of boys who hated me to no end, I would dream every night that I was grabbing their skulls and crushing them into concrete repetitively until they died. Dreams like that are just an outlet and an over dramatised scene of how you feel right now. Once they are out of your life when you're 16 (or if something happens sooner hopefully) these dreams will go.
Hold on to Max, have hope and be strong.
24 Jul 2012, 3:38 pm
