Talking to people, depression and suicide

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Hale_Bopp it might seriously be worth considering talking to a counsellor or pshycologist.

I dont mean to say your mad or ill cos your not. Your perceptions of yourself especially have been altered by what people have said or done to you and thier reaction to you. It may have been made worse by your AS.

You should not hate yourself and should not be feeling that suicide is a realistic option.

From what Ive read of you you are a very nice person so have no reason to self hate.

A therapist will help you get to the root cause of the thoughts and help you see that the problem lies not with you, but with others.


I have a lot of personal experience of suicidal thoughts, intent, attempts etc and so do some of the others on here so feel free to PM etc if you dont want to see a professional.

I don't come across as a nice person. I am at war with the world, and the hate comes out.

Whenever I stop trying, the hate just comes out everywhere. I'm sick of trying, I want to be able to act normal without trying.

It is your perception that you come across nasty. Based on what yu write hear you dont seem nasty.

You have good reasons to seem at odds with the world based on how you feel. If you have no outlet for those negative emotions they will come out in all sorts of places.

Define normal????

I bet you cant! Normal is a stereotype. We are all difirent even with AS. There may be things we cannot achieve naturally without manually trying as a result of AS. I can understand why that is hard for you. The only way you can deal with not being able to do certain things is throgh acceptance and more importantly being happy with who you are.

That's probably the biggest weakness us with AS have. We don't know how people feel about us, whether in real life or on the internet, we can't see the verbal cues. From what I've read from your posts, you seem to be a great girl who is more sure of who she is than more than 95% of the other women I know. I guess that is what our strengths are that come from our weaknesses, we seem to focus on who we really are, albeit sometimes way too much. There is a lot to live for in this world, even if it isn't the "normal" way to do things.

I've though about suicide quite a bit. I think I'm a lot better now (like post december, pre december I was thinking about finding a tank full of helium* and having a little nap)








*helium is a mostly inert gas, your body can't detect it so you wouldn't even know you were suffocating, it's the concentration of CO2 in your blood that determines if you feel suffocation so it would be an ABSOLUTELY painless way to commit suicide, argon also works, welders have died in tanks of argon completely unaware that they were suffocating


**DON'T GET ANY IDEAS PEOPLE

Suicide is not an option for me. I have aims, however far off they are. I want to live to see what happens fifty years from now. No matter how depressed I feel, how much I want to escape, I will never kill myself as long as I can achieve my aims, which, in the long run are far more important than my feelings and situation now. My crippled feelings and emotions are my greatest handicap but also essential in many ways.

I wish I could say the same for other people. But my advice is to hang on. Things are boring and life seems tedious, and without purpose at the moment. Suicide will just destroy all chances that you have of seeing the future, whether it is mind numbingly dull or very interesting. It was actually immensely depressing writing this. I think way too much.

Tried the suicide thing three times myself. Twice I chickened out at the last sec. Once took a double handful of various meds. Wrong mix. Just four days in a coma.
Suicide seems like the best and only choice at times. I feel so alone and lonely that the world looks bleak. But keep going. Take it a day at the time. If that doesn't work an hour at the time, etc. Some days i'm on the millisecond cycle. But still alive. Just keep hanging on. Find that little thing that keeps you going and hold on to it tight.

[quote="hHhcolt49"]I agree suicide is a horrible option, if anyone dies that to me is very hurtful.. but at the same time, I know that telling someone not to do it without another good option can be useless. The whole problem is knowing for a fact your life is pointless and will continue to suck until you finally croak.. making you wanna skip to the end credits, like fast forwarding a bad movie. I know that to me, I don't want anything out of life except love and relationships with people. That is WHO I AM, a career, money, power, fame, any object or anything I could do on this Earth means nothing to me, all that matters is Love and People to me.. and yet the only thing that I want in life is the one thing I know I can't have. So who brings forward the better option than suicide?[/quot

Strange but I've just received an email from one Co. with the name "Fast Forward" that helps aspergers, autism and other kinds of similar problems. I don't really know if it can help but worth while for you to find out. I don't know if it can be for adults or not.
http://neuron.typepad.com/neuron/

jesus necroing...this was written 4 years ago!
why reply to it now

Can a moderator lock it? Bringing this up again is unfair on hale_bopp.