Thinking of becoming a alchocolic
There is a tree fungus that lives in the rain forest in South America. It drops spores on insects passing below that quickly get to the brain. The infected creature crawls back to the source where it is then consumed by the mold. Like an involuntary suicide.
The ability to take over the will of another creature is not limited to this one fungus.
Alcohol behaves very similar to the fungus in the rain forest as alcohol is made from rot. It will make you go back to the source again and again until you are consumed by it. If you ever manage to break free, your mind will be permanantly damaged and the pile of regret becomes more than anyone should have to bear.
Don't do it.
It's just that they can't function normally without it.
True, but i said PROPER Alcoholic.

Twelve days seems to be my limit.
I used to drink a lot, now i can go for months without even thinking about it
- if i have spliff to roll.

I can't speak from personal experience at all as I have never even been drunk, but I have heard, read and seen certain things.
From what I know alcohol just amplifies your "real" mood, so if you feel depressed and are only doing that in the hopes to feel happy or to fit in, you will achieve quite the opposite.
From what I heard, people start to drink because it numbs their bad feelings at first and the sorrows and the worries seemingly disappear.
Then they pass that numbing limit after a while and start drink more and more because it didn't help anymore as they got used to it.
Then that increased amounts only manage to amplify their negative feelings, their feelings of being worthless, their selfdoubt and frustration which they actually tried to get away from.
Then they just manage to make their depression worse, but keep on drinking anyway hoping to get that effect back.
Then they get addicted, if they weren't already.
Then they struggle to get rid of it and feel even worse than before.
Plus (especially when you're not used to it), when you drink too much at once, you might end up in the hospital with an alcohol poisoning, which could end not-so-nicely. This is especially risky when you have a drink where you don't even notice that you're consuming alcohol, so beware!
That's what I have observed at least. Maybe someone can confirm that or correct what has to be corrected.
But let's be honest there: Does it sound like it would really be worth it being an alcoholic? I struggle to understand your motivation.
If you struggle with depressions, go to your doctor and ask for a prescription of antidepressants, St. John's Wort was mentioned here in this thread (and as far as I know it bears little to no risk of an addiction), and if possible, also try to get a session at a psychologist. If it doesn't help after taking it for a while and you have to wait until a session for what seems too long, discuss that with your doctor and see what else can be done.
EDIT: I've just spotted and read your other thread and if you fear about your guns and don't want to go see a doctor and can't get a session at a psychologist because they're all full, then let me say that when being constantly drunk, it'll just be more dangerous than losing them (which, as some others have expressed, doesn't seem likely). In that case, you will be the danger to yourself though. People don't act rationally when drunk and can get overwhelmed by their emotions. Also, depression has its up and downs, one day you can feel okay, the next day you just don't want to wake up at all and wish you could retreat from life and stay in your dreams, medication can help to make the bad days less terrible.
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That could take many years and would be a very slow, painful and horrible death

THIS. I've seen people die from alcoholism, and when I got sober nearly twenty years ago, it wasn't because I was afraid it would kill me, but because I was afraid it wouldn't kill me quickly enough.
One reason I've avoided drinking
Me, too. My father drank himself to death by the age of 44. (Literally, he died of liver failure and his organs shut down). Horrible way to go.
You've been smart to avoid drinking.
I'm sorry you are feeling this way and hope you find some better ways of coping and feeling better soon. Will try to keep you in my prayers.
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