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19 Feb 2011, 6:07 pm

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See, ya can't quit just 'cause you feel depressed. The only time you should ever quit is when you're dead.

As for your family, ignore them 'til you can leave 'em if you don't like them so much. :\


I am not talking about normal depressed feelings everyone experiances at one time or another.......I have clinical depression so its a constant depressed feeling that sometimes becomes unbearable. I mean I don't know if you have ever experianced depression so bad that it cause complete energy loss and even physical pain but it is not something you can just overlook and then get on with life. But yeah I mean I don't try and just quit on anything but my ability to do well is effected greatly.



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19 Feb 2011, 6:07 pm

People sense i'm a 'bit off' too, but I just make a joke of it and they just seem to accept it as a little quirk.
I often get told jokingly i'm a 'f*****g weirdo.' >.<



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19 Feb 2011, 6:08 pm

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Your employers were dicks. Can't change that. Have you tried getting a job through human resources?


No, because I'm in college.......with how hard college is even just with three classes there is no way I could handle a job on top of that.



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19 Feb 2011, 6:09 pm

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People sense i'm a 'bit off' too, but I just make a joke of it and they just seem to accept it as a little quirk.
I often get told jokingly i'm a 'f***ing weirdo.' >.<

I both do that and get those.



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19 Feb 2011, 6:10 pm

Uhh just noticed my title should have the word life not ife..



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19 Feb 2011, 6:12 pm

Sweetleaf wrote:
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Your employers were dicks. Can't change that. Have you tried getting a job through human resources?


No, because I'm in college.......with how hard college is even just with three classes there is no way I could handle a job on top of that.
I meant befor that. I suggest that you. My stepbrother, who is likely more autistic than the two of us combined are and he has quite a successful job.

And don't sweat it, I mispell title words all the time. :D



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19 Feb 2011, 6:13 pm

I think the right job is important.
I couldn't stick just any old job.
I need one where I feel remotely safe.



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19 Feb 2011, 6:20 pm

Jonsi wrote:
Sweetleaf wrote:
Jonsi wrote:
Your employers were dicks. Can't change that. Have you tried getting a job through human resources?


No, because I'm in college.......with how hard college is even just with three classes there is no way I could handle a job on top of that.
I meant befor that. I suggest that you. My stepbrother, who is likely more autistic than the two of us combined are and he has quite a successful job.

And don't sweat it, I mispell title words all the time. :D


ahh well no before that I did not either......I was kind of worried about a manditory super accurate drug test being required to even look into that. And well I had smoked marijuana so it would have shown up......not sure what kind of policy human resource jobs have...



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19 Feb 2011, 6:25 pm

Basically, they'll take anyone who needs a job. They'll give you a questionaire to answer and they'll give you a job based on that. You may have to give up drugs for awhile though. At least until you get the job.

It varies from country to country. Hopefully you have it in yours. D:



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19 Feb 2011, 6:30 pm

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Basically, they'll take anyone who needs a job. They'll give you a questionaire to answer and they'll give you a job based on that. You may have to give up drugs for awhile though. At least until you get the job.

It varies from country to country. Hopefully you have it in yours. D:


Well I went a couple months without smoking any cannabis in case I got called for a job interview....but that never happened, I decided to try out community college.......and my depression had gotten unbearable so I started smoking again. So yeah having a job in that state of depression would not have lasted very long.



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19 Feb 2011, 6:33 pm

Didn't you post another thread saying you felt paranoid - you know weed makes you paranoid, right?
It's probably making your problems worse than better.

Drug use f****d me right up.
Last time I had a hit, I tried to kill myself.
Not of cannabis, but still.



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19 Feb 2011, 6:34 pm

Ah well. I think you just need to break the depression. I used to be permadepressed because of how sh***y life was. Then I managed to break it and life has been a lot better since. Hopefully you're the same. :D



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19 Feb 2011, 6:52 pm

emlion wrote:
Didn't you post another thread saying you felt paranoid - you know weed makes you paranoid, right?
It's probably making your problems worse than better.

Drug use f**** me right up.
Last time I had a hit, I tried to kill myself.
Not of cannabis, but still.

If you had a hit of cannabis Youd be lucky to find your wrists to cut.

A bit off topic, why is it that its impossible for anyone to believe me when I say im not depressed but want to kill myself?



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19 Feb 2011, 6:54 pm

Why would you want to kill yourself if you weren't depressed?



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19 Feb 2011, 6:56 pm

emlion wrote:
Why would you want to kill yourself if you weren't depressed?

It just doesnt make any logical sense to go through all the hassles for not much further enjoyment. And also that we all die anyhow.



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19 Feb 2011, 6:58 pm

It's the only life you'll have.