Watching cool people lose themselves

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I hate seeing everyone around me fail.
My entire life, I have suceeded. one way or another. I practice, 24/7. I try to be upbeat and somewhat reckless.
I take risks, but not stupid ones. I do things with my life, experiment, adventure, create. it seems so hard for me to see why people fail.

Ive had a s**t draw too. I have no money, my father is dead. I am single and pinned as a strange guy. and I was unemployed for a while and homeless.
I got out of that with work and determination. with passion and risk. Why can't my friends do the same?

they are failing in life, giving up dreams and hopes. Having sex with each other's crushes just to mess with them, dropping like flies right out of college.
Why?
they gave me so much hope, and now they give me excuses.
I feel like I hate them. Like im discusted by the hypocrocy they presented to me. They are the ones who taught me to strive like I have, and fight my own fight. And now they arent following through because it is hard.


Im a single 19 year old guy. I have no women intrested in me. I fail at being able to impress the opposite gender. I resent people who cant take a risk. and I dont know how to fix myself any more.
Ive worked so hard my entire life to be able to fix myself, and have friends. but time after time they abandon me.

I only have one who does not. I guess that is a start.

Im just frustrated. Im tired. Angry, and hungry.

I want the opportunities i created, but the chance to be like them. the chance to have my convictions and work, and just be them. to find a reason as to why they dont.

p*****s. all of them.

Liars. All of them.

I cant stand the lies I see put on my plate every day just to make them feel intresting.

the lies to make me feel better.
the lies are everywhere.


It is time for mankind to fight a war. A war against themselves. and be willing to die for it.

That time is now.

hey, what happened to your avatar?
i thought you used to have one.

and on the topic:

yeah, i've felt like that too at times.
I still don't have that many friends, but i've found i don't need more than a few good ones anyways. If you have your one good one, then that's something goof going for you.

as for me though, i haven't necessarily escaped from the s**t draw like you have. But i'm not exactly just lying down and taking it either. Taking some college courses this fall, still looking for work all the time, might finally be getting my own car but it needs some small repairs first because it's a decrepit piece of sh!t, etc.

Where people fail in one aspect in life, they succeed in another. You work hard to make your place, and you don't fit in because everyone else does the opposite, which is always the easy way out. A fellow Aspie said the other day, "I set trends, not follow them."

It takes a p**** to sh*t on someone, but someone stronger to wipe it off.

Taking risks is not the same as adapting. 5 years ago if I took a risk and asked a chick out, I'd get shot down. Today if I asked a chick out... well I haven't tried it lately but I have a better chance.

People respect me more than they did 5 years ago. Did I turn into an a**hole? No, I'm the same person as I was then. The difference is that I'm a person who can look you in the eye.

You out grew them. Sometimes people are comfortable where they are no matter how impractical, illogical and unhealthy the circumstances may be.

They gave you what they could, even if they couldn't give it to themselves.
Release your hurt and anger towards them. You have obviously gained from
what they taught/showed you, so think of it as a gift and let go of the rest.

It's tough, I know, but you can't change them
you can only change yourself.

Send them Graditude, Let go and move on.

Take Care,
Anjie

thanks meeks