always being misconstrued

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god damn it ;( im always being misconstrued for everything i do or say and giving people the worst ideas about me. it really really really really really sucks. i like to talk about things that are "out there" and people always think i'm being perverse, insinuating something or i'm just plain crazy. when i'm trying to explain a point emphasize things with strong mock-intonations and people think i'm angrily pushing my ideas onto them. i make a remark in a tone of voice that lacks cheery intonation and people think it's dry sarcasm.
imagine someone you've just met saying "that's amazing" in a monotone with a deadpan expression after you excitedly share with them a musing about your day. and then they just shoot you a glance and look up a tree.
imagine how horribly rude and sarcastic that must seem to someone who is neurotypical, sensitive, and doesn't know you're an aspie.
nobody likes me and everyone is creeped out by me because i don't have a mind projector. i can't project my raw internal thoughts onto the screen of my physical image and invert them for neurotypicals to watch with ease.
fuckfuckfuckfuck.

Been there, done that, bought the t-shirt, wore it out, and bought another one.

Actually, i can't stand t-shirts with writing on them... People will likely misconstrue them too.

I also get it when i have this uncontrollable urge to play the "devil's advocate" which... well, on most matters that are not black and white, if a discussion is heading in a way that is one sided... i HAVE to play that part... No matter whether i agree with them or not.
99.99% of the time, i'm tarred and feathered as "one of them"
Guess it's just that NT's are too stupid to understand that a conversation isn't a conversation if it is just a bunch of people agreeing on something.

Here's my warped view of why some people misunderstand.

They're too stupid to think "oh, that's a silly thought, he must be joking/sarcastic/facetious etc"
they have to rely on looks on your face, intonations, etc.... when they don't match up with what they're used to (as if everyone should make exactly the same face when making a sarcastic comment!) They assume you're being serious ... (assume = ASS U ME)

The facial expressions that seem natural to me (which might not be much of a change from normal) and the intonations that I use, ... Well, perhaps the "mocking" voice i use, people see as mocking them for not taking what i'm saying as if it were truth. Where in reality, i'm mocking the idea i'm saying.
Then... the way i am, when people react negatively.. it's almost like I have to continue arguing the stupid comment on principle... because.. well, not sure why... just because... maybe it's a form of OCD, Maybe it's that at that point I can make fun of them, without their even knowing, for being so stupid as to think anyone would seriously take that position.

Think of it this way... We can see humour in things that NT's just can't.
That humour is a better, and a deeper humour than they'll ever be able to understand.
Ergo, we win... They lose.
*sigh* but at what cost, the victory?