Fear of being alone for the rest of my life

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I think everyone knows about me and Fiz. I just want to say that I was wrong. I don't know what came over me. I just thought she and I could be more than friends. I don't why every time I try to make friends with the opposite sex it always ends that way. I must have scared her away. I just don't want to know that I'll be alone for the rest of my life. I hate being alone. I've been alone for the first half of my life so why can't I find someone some girl who I'll give my all to her? I so need to be in love. I think one of my intrests must be trying and failing to have a relationship with some girl. I just want to let everyone know that I also have OCD and I'm still suffering through Depression. I hate being depressed all the time when I want to be happy but the fear of being alone really scares me. Scares me to death. I hate it.

hey, try not to let it get to you. I know how difficult it is trying to find a partner. To find someone who not only you like and enjoy the company of AND fancy is pretty difficult. I always find i either fancy them but don't enjoy being with them or love being with them but just don't fancy them!
I'm 28 and only had 1 serious relationship. I'd been down on myself for so long as i couldn't understand why i found it so hard to find anyone and/or stick with them.
Now i try not be beat myself up, sometimes it's hard to be single but i think it's better than the alternative of being with someone for the hell of it.

I know. I have the same problem.

It is quite common. I hope things work out for you.

The fear of being alone isn't limited to people with AS, that's for certain. it is, however, worse for us to overcome because of how hard it is for us to deal with not only the emotions but the socialization required to even make a friend, much less find a partner.

Heck, just last night I practically shut down from the lonelieness I was feeling. I couldn't even get up the motivation to do any of the usual things that make me able to ignore the hooirble feelings.

So you're not alone despite how it feels.

Yeah I hope so too because I don't really know where I'm headed.

Good things will turn up, I can tell.

Really how can you tell?

I am trying to think positively.

Yeah I should too. Thanks.

You're welcome!

that's why so many NTs are in relationships with people they don't love, they're too scared to be alone!
i'd rather be alone than with someone i don't love. In fact, i have no choice, because i can't fake it.

Maybe its because I've been alone for the first half of my life and that I didn't give a darn about anyone that I decided to try to be with someone. I can blame this wanting to be with someone on my ex fiance because she's the one who made me want to be around people well with her and other people. I really think that I might be flying off the handle about Fiz. I mean she could be gone some where and have no time to be on the net. I'll wait till tomorrow because she'll have a lot of reading to do I mean the six or seven pms that I've sent her. If it comes across that she might be you know into me I want no one to mention any of this to her because I don't want to let her know that I was being a such an idot about this whole thing. When I checked who viewed my profile last on Thursday it was her and colonel1fan. So she could be hiding that she's into me. Or I might be digging something up that isn't there. I know that this whole having a relationship with one person one girl could be one of my obessions. One of my circle of small tight intrests. You can really tell a lot about a person the way they post. Those pms are expressing my love to her and the last one is well maybe a little on the you know what side not the hateful one but that one thing that children do.
I just want to tell everyone that you all don't have to be so great towards me. Thanks!

Yea, im scared of that too. Why just the other week i was so eloquently told by a supervisor at my vol. station "why no one likes me". It was accually complementary, but it stung none the less.
I jsut hate that the only offers I get for a date come with "fine print". Like We'll go out if you will preform this "service" or if you will get wild and nekkid..... uh huh... what ever....

And some of the aquaintences that I have that whine to me all the time about not having a date and what are they gonna do on friday.... do they EVER ask me to go anyplace.... hell no!

Its gonna get better, I know that it will, but at the bottom of the social well the top looks so darn far away.....

lower a bucket somebody....


any body?

Yeah I know what you mean. Well I guess I'll let Fiz be who she is and let my self find someone outside the silver gates of safety of this site and of the net.

In another topic, you also mentioned having Anxiety Disorder.

Please do not do that. If you go around regularly mentioning your disorders in such a manner, people will think it is weird. It is just not right to make announcements like, "I just want to let everyone know that I have OCD, Depression, and Anxiety Disorder".

WHY do you want to let everyone know? Perhaps you do not intend this, but to me, it feels like you are deliberately trying to manipulate me into feeling sympathy for you. Intentional or not, I feel manipulated.

Sympathy, if it is to be felt, should arise by itself, not because you artificially engendered it.

I am not holding a grudge, so I will still give you my best wishes despite the above complaint.

Whatever.