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Not relevant, sorry!

Don't feel bad about it. Besides, it is relevant as it's something that is occuring in your mind that you wish to speak.

It was a post-meltdown panic post where I'd had an argument with my mum then she went out for a drive after a couple of drinks which sent me into a major meltdown, my dad calmed me down enough to stop hyperventilating/scratching/pulling out hair etc but she didn't come back for nearly an hour which really freaked me out and I couldn't stop crying/shaking. We're still not talking but I've hidden the car key and she's gone to bed, still feel horrible though. Dad said she was trying to freak me out and I shouldn't react coz that's what she wanted but I couldn't help it, and I'm still really shaky. Going to go to bed soon and listen to Harry Potter to try to calm down, would usually go for a run but it's 10.45pm so a bit late. Wasn't even a major argument- just the usual about me 'depressing her' by 'not being happy' and 'not fulfilling my potential' but it escalated and it's always worse when she has a drink, which I know she does to annoy me (I hate it when she drinks, even if it's just a couple of glasses of wine coz she gets really defensive/argumentative) but I can't stop reacting to it . Can't even apologize coz I don't know exactly what I'm supposed to have done!

Well from what I read and knowing the behaviour. I'd say your mother has no control over the alcohol she consumes and possibly no control over herself.
Plus you are morally correct about her not driving while under the influence of alcohol because it's been proven by footage that erratic driving can cause accidents, collisions and other tradiegies on the road.
The good thing is that you feel better than what you did and from my perspective you did the right thing and shouldn't need to apologise for it.