Usually I can't cry, not even when I'm sad. When I'm sad, I tell people that I feel sad, and I often tell them I need them to take my word for it. But every now and then I'll cry (usually related to the death of a pet, occasionally related to the death of a human), and usually then it's like an explosive kind of crying that I can't stop, and it makes it hard to breathe. I can't talk at all when I cry, which is super-frustrating because I can't talk about what's wrong. There doesn't seem to be an in-between. Lately I've been trying to cry when I feel sad, and if I try really hard (and only if I'm genuinely feeling sad) I can tear up, which is new for me. But there's still this huge gap between feeling my eyes getting a little wet and completely bawling. My psychiatrist says that's common among people on the spectrum. (A previous psychiatrist told me that taking anti-depressants can make it harder to cry, and these days I take 60 mg of Paxil daily.) I wish I could cry more because I've always felt much better afterward.
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I do not look like a homeless panhandler! I look just the way nature made me -- like a rock star! Can I help it if homeless panhandlers and rock stars look similar to you?