Results of anxiety: damned if I do, damned if I don't

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24 Aug 2015, 4:53 am

I realize the reason humans get anxiety. It's supposed to be helpful in a position of stress so that a person gets more energy. Sometimes it goes haywire.

My anxiety levels are way down, compared to what they used to be, mostly as a result of medication. It still varies from time to time. Here's the weird part: When I don't feel much anxiety at all, I feel unmotivated; but when I do have some it makes me more resentful of my parents (my dad does not probably have Asperger's, but his own rigidity along with Asperger's make me more frustrated with things he has done and makes me want to rebel), so that I that I don't get much done. So, damned if I do, damned if I don't.


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24 Aug 2015, 5:29 am

It's weird, isn't it? The way anxiety fluctuates between being motivating, and crippling. What meds are you on? I find the meds I tried (and I tried a lot) made me generally not care about anything, but I still had outbreaks of severe anxiety. CBT helped me to an extent, but I found it to be highly flawed. Does anything in particular trigger your anxiety? My main triggers are people/social situations/anything related to ill health



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24 Aug 2015, 6:04 am

Inle wrote:
It's weird, isn't it? The way anxiety fluctuates between being motivating, and crippling. What meds are you on? I find the meds I tried (and I tried a lot) made me generally not care about anything, but I still had outbreaks of severe anxiety. CBT helped me to an extent, but I found it to be highly flawed. Does anything in particular trigger your anxiety? My main triggers are people/social situations/anything related to ill health



I have more anxiety than is typical for someone with Asperger's. I have disorder which involves increasing anxiety until the age of the late 20s and involves early-in-life psychosis. It's called Multiple Complex Developmental Disorder; the diagnosis was developed in Europe and is not recognized by the APA. Really intense anxiety without meds. (The APA DSM 5 diagnoses would be Autism Spectrum Disorder, Schizoaffective Disorder, and Obsessive-compulsive Disorder)

The meds I take are Lexapro and Seroquel. I take full 40 mg of Lexapro, the max allowed by guidelines. I take "regular" Seroquel (i.e., not extended release), 650 mg of it. Also 8 mg of Abilify, which, if anything, increases anxiety (not the other way around!).

Sensory issues can really increase anxiety for me. (Whether they can be called sensory issues, I am not sure -- but they are close.) Certain foods increase anxiety for me and can make me sick in other ways.... It seems I have a leaky gut, even though many in the medical field say that does not occur. Finally realized that deodorant causes anxiety, too -- even the kind without strong scent. I guess I should shower frequently but not use deodorant.


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24 Aug 2015, 6:13 am

I've never heard of that diagnosis before, sounds horrid. My official diagnosis is GAD and PTSD from childhood trauma. I don't have a diagnosis of Aspergers, but I definitely have many traits that can't be explained by my other diagnoses. I used to be on Seroquel too, but I couldn't function well enough on it to look after my son. A lot of sensory things make me anxious too, some physically hurt me. Like when people sneeze, even if they're not particularly near by, really hurts my ears/head. It's mostly smells that make me anxious, that's always been put down to my PTSD.



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24 Aug 2015, 6:21 am

Yes, Multiple Complex Developmental Disorder sounds pretty bad, but I am doing pretty good considering they have meds that help a lot.


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24 Aug 2015, 8:52 am

To clarify - I didn't mean the 'title' sounds bad, I meant the way it affects you sounds debilitating. I'm not very good with words and often say the wrong thing.



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24 Aug 2015, 9:33 am

Inle wrote:
To clarify - I didn't mean the 'title' sounds bad, I meant the way it affects you sounds debilitating. I'm not very good with words and often say the wrong thing.


I was not bothered by it. No worries.


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