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I have been hospitalized since Sat. , due to this shaking plus gaining weight plus throwing up and I am breaking the rules in my room doing this .
Late last week , I lost ~ not stolen , this time ~ the latest crappy tablet , second-hand , I'd bought after being banned from the library . I asked my doctor at the Respite to get to the Library and say that I was hospitalized and wouldn't get to the Library today (Tues.) for my " trial " ~ I don't know whether he did or did not .
If I only had not lost that tablet , it could be adequate-ish here ~ but I did and it isn't . No contact with anyone .
And that tablet gone makes for even MORE of the HUNDREDS AND HUNDREDS of depleted dollars I've had to spend over and over again on the same things , as they become gone , in these last months . I can't rebuild myself that way !

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Do you have TV in your room?

Oh man, I'm sorry to hear this.

Have you heard of the "kite" system that people in prisons use? You write a note on a tiny piece of toilet paper, fold it up into a triangle attached to a string that you've harvested from your bedsheet and then you throw it out your door. A kind person walks by and transports it to the addressee listed on the outside of the kite.

Perhaps a fallback?

I feel bad for you, ASS-P, because your diagnoses (renal failure, congestive heart failure, COPD, diabetes and obesity) are all fatal. For your own sake it behooves you to take your doctors' advice. No more meat. No more French fries. No more fried anything. No more potatoes. Just beans, peas, fruit, and vegetables.

...I should say that I am " hospitalized " in the sense that I am in a hospital , however , I am not in a mental hospital , or comparable , which I suppose the phrase " hospitalized " could be interpreted as . I (understand myself to be) in a " normal " hospital , and I was taklking of when I'll get out .
Yes , I have a TV .
I should say , RR , one problem is , when you're homeless , acess to " healhi-er " foods is far more difficult , the shelters I was in there last few months , as I'm sure you can imagine4 , served much food you'd no doubt disapprove of .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...I was visited by my HOT Team " keeper " too , he said he'd phone-call the library for me too...Again , RR , if I get out and I can get back into Respite (there's doubt ) , I guess that would be seen as , conventially , " the right/safe thing for mme to do " , I wager KK thinks so !...Really , how could I concentrate on eating only what you say there ?
Perhaps I could re-invent myself into some Johnny Appleseed/" mountain man " " " sleeps in the hills somewhere " type and fix my styuff there - I'd really have to retrain myself and have - and kern - a lot of new equipment !
I mean , as far as such new stuff goes , I'd been sort of hoping for a double gift of some extra funds and the apparently going out of business Sports Authority stores having a close-out sale...I don't think I'd be in real great shape to be a rambler now (with really no luggage at all now ) IF I ever can be .........

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

,,,t is now looking like , incidentally , the shoes I had on got left behind , downstairs at the ER (where I was about 30 hours incidentally , when I was transferred to a room upstairs ~ And it looks like they are gone now . I had ONLY bought them a couple of weeks-ish previous , and they were one of only two pair of shoes I have...More necessities gone/money depletion .

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

At least you might get back your library card.

Okay now, this might sound like a wild idea, so bear with me.

Are there any hippy communes that you could get to? I know there used to be, at least in the northern part of CA. I don't know what would exist today or how you would get to one. I'm in SW VA and my sister's mom lived in a commune for awhile. There were several around here that lasted into the 1980s in large forms and still exist as smaller safe houses where people can go, pitch in around the house and garden, and have a place to stay. It's usually organic food, minimal running water and electricity, usually the people are into weed smoking- but frankly that might not be bad for you with your specific issues. The people are usually about your age too.

Perhaps you could ask around? I'm serious. At least here, it is a real option.

ASS-P, do you get food stamps? I get food stamps and I spend it manly on beans, peas, granola bars, fruit and so on. At the food bank I just get a vegetarian no-cook bag. They still manage to get some chicken soup or tuna in the bag but I just give those away.

I stress this because, remember, I had a stroke with a blood pressure of 244/189. I used to do drugs and drink like a fish. Now I eat the healthier diet and walk a lot. I lost 51 pounds and, according to the weight machine in the supermarket, my BMI is in a good range. Can't complain.

...SOC , that does seem worthy of consideration , it had been in my mind (a touch ~ sarcastically ? ~ and in the more 80s-era equivalent concept of " punk rock squatting ") ~ Yeah , how ? Even given that , now re-reading this , I saw that you're more meaning here in Norcal than in the South , a long ways away . Ya know , in getting to know people/communicate with them , having greater portable Web communicating skills/abilities would help here , to return to my constant them~ but I don't HAVE those abilities . As I have said so many times here and that IS " abilities " , not equipment , I'm speaking of .
Are there boards/stuff by people discussing this sort of thing ?
What sort of places would not be too heavy/cult-like ?
Is there anything you could say to me regarding your concept on a PM level , SOC ?
RR . I THINK , literally speaking , the amount of SSDE I get presludes getting " literal " food stamps , though I may be wrong . To be literal here . And continuing with literal-ness , KK , I didn't have to turn in my San Fran library card , KK , I still have it !
You know , though , this happening , and maybe espec ially what the guard who touched me and a librarian said to each other about me , evfen if the banning gets called of ~ puts a pretty strong chill on ,y feelings toward the SF Public Library sustem (Which does not mean that I would be unable to bring myself to use it should the banning be ended , but ) , this is maybe just beyond the " readily feeling myself ' a friend ' " point . Even with the SF system , even just the downtown ML , being a ` pretty well-supported certainly ~ " pretty cool/lotsa neat stuff " library (With , like , a main auditorium in the ML that compares far more favorable to many movie or stage theaters , just for one...)
When I was in Seattle , RR , I was breifly in a well-known Seattle collective living concept of sorts , one that I am sure you know about .
It didn't turn out real well !

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...At this point the hospital is mad at me over my s**t storm-raising over the shoes and are trying to get me out , with no place to go ~ Going from the hospital person reporting to me that the respite place wouldn't have me back ! I said that I have to have somewhere to go , I said to call the Hot Team " Keeper " I mentioned before...I do need a place to go , obviouslike... ...........

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

...OK , at this point , the official signs are looking upward - I am to picked up from here at 3 , to go to " a house "/an SRO ~ I still have my stuff (and the ML linkage , and me maybe wanting to try and maintain a link with one person there) with the Respite , bgut...Um , to an equivalent , maybe being obnoxious/" a New Yorker " about the shoes paid ? They are gone forever , apparently . I have just the other , I-am-wearing-them-right-now , pair .
When I discussed the shoes , repetition of certain phrases/concewpts (Or when they appeared to start , anyweay ~ Which I do believe they probably were ! ) got me mad...
I am still homeless and sick (Tho improved now) ...

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

You have a lot of strength, ASS-P.
I wish you well.

...Okay , it didn't go well last night - I slept outside , as the SRO withdrew the room after I coughed much .
Now , very briefly , I am aiting to go to HOT again , late , with only few minutes here to post , I slept little last night , it's Friday , I couldn't call that legal outfit either...

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

Where do I start ?:
On Friday (It's Saturday now) , I went to my keepers (HOT Team) , they said I had a slot lined up at another shelter (the 4th I've been in this S.F. time) , my worker there said he'd take me , but , he said I was " going too slow " , leaving me there (& arranging someone else to take me) after I was too slow in getting up following him and in trying to write a note to people at the former Respite place .
The other did take me down there .
On Thurs , I had left my other clothes with the worker , I was supposed to get them back Friday .
I didn't .
It's Sat. now , I have still just the clothes I put on Thurs (+ some new underwear as yet unworn) , just one set ~ and I can't even hope to try to get them back til' Monday ~ and HOT makes it difficult to getm in touch with them other than by physically going to their offices .
i have more stuff stolen , JUST NOW !

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!