how ridiculous would it be to request a removal of the right big toe after a very long time of repeated ingrown toenails, swelling and infection, ending up in removal of the nail segment only for it to read its ugly head months later once more?
because it appears that this is the course my life is heading in...and if i had to choose between spendng the next few decades in a constant war against my own foot or just having the offending extremity removed, i'd opt for the latter really.
i realize i may be exaggerating. i realize many doctors will refuse to do this, but f**k, even just today it was stepped on and i stubbed it HARD, on a wooden pallet and it's gotten red, swollen, bloody and black. i went to the urgent care clinic to have part of the nail removed a month ago...but the doc refused to do it saying it was too infected. she suggested epsom saltwater baths and prescribed a weeks worth of antibiotics. i soon ran out of those and have been bathing the thing every day but that's not a long term solution is it??
then what is????
it STILL HURTS, it HURTS to walk and IM JUST SO SICK OF THIS!
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