AnneOleson wrote:
So the hospital people thought you called a suicide hotline, had the police over and got an ambulance ride so you could get some Gravol?? Silly. I would have thought the same as you, that you could talk freely to someone on the hotline. Long ago, when I still lived in Toronto I called one. I hung up before they got any info from me as it quickly seemed like a waste of time. (It was before call display on phones so they didn’t track me and send police.) I’m glad you’re home again and with your cat. You can talk to her. I miss my mother too although I never told her any of my serious troubles.
She asked for my address and I thought she was asking for permission to send the police. She wasn't asking permission.
There are lonely people whose only social life is the Emergency Ward. Once society labels you white trash, it's hard to pick yourself up in the morning, to go out at all. And I had a childhood where I believed I had no right to exist, that I was God's mistake. I pitied the neighbours for having to live near me. But we all have to carry the burden of God's mistakes and that includes me. I was 5yo when I first thought that. And I am not the only one, is what I'm trying to say here.
The right to terrorize and abuse children and the adults they grow into is a "normal" part of life. There is so much permitted hatred everywhere. Yesterday yet another bunch of people covered the statue of John A. (founding father of Canada) *again* with paint. There's a statue of Queen Victoria in front of the Music Academy of McGill U that gets the same treatment. We shrug and fix it. And then there's swastikas on temples. Recently, shooters at immigrants' places of worship. But then I have to go out and offer myself as victim to the angry people of the world.
Don't tell. Don't ever tell what we did to you. And that's what's wrong now - I told that young woman.
Can we make the Haven a safe place to talk? Just to speak, to stop carrying the secrets, to let them out - could that be a good thing to try to make?
And don't think we're alone here.
@ Alex: is there really security here? I have assumed that anything on-line is "as private as a post card." I know you have worked very hard to give us maximum security, but in today's world, are there any secrets and safety on-line?