I'm getting agoraphobia, I know it

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25 Aug 2022, 11:11 am

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They don't know I clean coaches, they just see me as a litter picker or something when I go to the other building, and I'm usually quite dirty and just because I'm a woman I'm supposed to be clean and glamorous.

I'm so glad I'm not living in America where guns are legalised, because then I'll never go out or send my kids to school if I had kids.

"Grow a thicker skin" means "social anxiety and PTSD doesn't exist or is easily cured". I am going to therapy about this, so hopefully that will help. It's not just something I can get over.


I remember one time I was on the escalator in primark (years ago). There was two girls in front of me. One turned around and saw me. She immediately turned to fer friend, whispered something and they both turned back around, looked me up and down and started laughing. There was absolutely nothing wrong with what I looked like. I went home and worried about it for quite a long time until I remembered that actually I've been through too much in my life to allow these two people to own me in this way.

I also have ptsd, it's actually really serious so I know how things can get in your head.


I've had that happen a few times with girls, and each time it happened it just fueled my social anxiety. It happened regularly at high school, but I was less aware of my actions back then and probably did look weird. But as I've grown older I've developed much better social skills to the level of NT really, or maybe an NT with social anxiety. I don't walk around with an odd gait or biting my nails nervously, like I used to when I was 13. I don't expect to be treated as a target any more, and the way people have been with me in public gives me a reason to worry that I look stupid or like an easy target, which could then increase the chances of me becoming a perfect target for violent gangs to pick on.


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25 Aug 2022, 11:13 am

To say that guns are "legalised" is untrue in much of the United States.

In New York City, a person must go through a very stringent licensing procedure in order to obtain a permit to have a gun. If you travel from Texas, where guns are easier to get, and get caught with a gun without a New York license, you can potentially get 7 years in prison. At one time, there was a minimum 1 year sentence for someone who possessed a loaded, unlicensed gun in New York; I'm not sure if that still is in effect. Still, it's VERY illegal to own an unlicensed gun in much of the Northeast.



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25 Aug 2022, 11:23 am

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They don't know I clean coaches, they just see me as a litter picker or something when I go to the other building, and I'm usually quite dirty and just because I'm a woman I'm supposed to be clean and glamorous.

I'm so glad I'm not living in America where guns are legalised, because then I'll never go out or send my kids to school if I had kids.

"Grow a thicker skin" means "social anxiety and PTSD doesn't exist or is easily cured". I am going to therapy about this, so hopefully that will help. It's not just something I can get over.


I remember one time I was on the escalator in primark (years ago). There was two girls in front of me. One turned around and saw me. She immediately turned to fer friend, whispered something and they both turned back around, looked me up and down and started laughing. There was absolutely nothing wrong with what I looked like. I went home and worried about it for quite a long time until I remembered that actually I've been through too much in my life to allow these two people to own me in this way.

I also have ptsd, it's actually really serious so I know how things can get in your head.


I've had that happen a few times with girls, and each time it happened it just fueled my social anxiety. It happened regularly at high school, but I was less aware of my actions back then and probably did look weird. But as I've grown older I've developed much better social skills to the level of NT really, or maybe an NT with social anxiety. I don't walk around with an odd gait or biting my nails nervously, like I used to when I was 13. I don't expect to be treated as a target any more, and the way people have been with me in public gives me a reason to worry that I look stupid or like an easy target, which could then increase the chances of me becoming a perfect target for violent gangs to pick on.


If you have ptsd then some of what you are experiencing could be down to that. I experienced severe anxiety and psychosis at one place of work. I was actually going through ptsd flashbacks that were sparked off by just a tiny thing that someone said and it just brought back all these terrifying emotions and memories from things that I had actually forgotten about from years ago. Maybe you are experiencing something of a similar thing.

Ptsd is a really powerful mental illness so I'm glad you're getting therapy for it.


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25 Aug 2022, 3:35 pm

Joe90 wrote:
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They don't know I clean coaches, they just see me as a litter picker or something when I go to the other building, and I'm usually quite dirty and just because I'm a woman I'm supposed to be clean and glamorous.

I'm so glad I'm not living in America where guns are legalised, because then I'll never go out or send my kids to school if I had kids.

"Grow a thicker skin" means "social anxiety and PTSD doesn't exist or is easily cured". I am going to therapy about this, so hopefully that will help. It's not just something I can get over.


I remember one time I was on the escalator in primark (years ago). There was two girls in front of me. One turned around and saw me. She immediately turned to fer friend, whispered something and they both turned back around, looked me up and down and started laughing. There was absolutely nothing wrong with what I looked like. I went home and worried about it for quite a long time until I remembered that actually I've been through too much in my life to allow these two people to own me in this way.

I also have ptsd, it's actually really serious so I know how things can get in your head.


I've had that happen a few times with girls, and each time it happened it just fueled my social anxiety. It happened regularly at high school, but I was less aware of my actions back then and probably did look weird. But as I've grown older I've developed much better social skills to the level of NT really, or maybe an NT with social anxiety. I don't walk around with an odd gait or biting my nails nervously, like I used to when I was 13. I don't expect to be treated as a target any more, and the way people have been with me in public gives me a reason to worry that I look stupid or like an easy target, which could then increase the chances of me becoming a perfect target for violent gangs to pick on.

oh stop worrying about peeps

they is boring they do the same thing All the time

so dull don't care



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25 Aug 2022, 5:43 pm

Joe90 wrote:
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They don't know I clean coaches, they just see me as a litter picker or something when I go to the other building, and I'm usually quite dirty and just because I'm a woman I'm supposed to be clean and glamorous.

I'm so glad I'm not living in America where guns are legalised, because then I'll never go out or send my kids to school if I had kids.

"Grow a thicker skin" means "social anxiety and PTSD doesn't exist or is easily cured". I am going to therapy about this, so hopefully that will help. It's not just something I can get over.


I remember one time I was on the escalator in primark (years ago). There was two girls in front of me. One turned around and saw me. She immediately turned to fer friend, whispered something and they both turned back around, looked me up and down and started laughing. There was absolutely nothing wrong with what I looked like. I went home and worried about it for quite a long time until I remembered that actually I've been through too much in my life to allow these two people to own me in this way.

I also have ptsd, it's actually really serious so I know how things can get in your head.


I've had that happen a few times with girls, and each time it happened it just fueled my social anxiety. It happened regularly at high school, but I was less aware of my actions back then and probably did look weird. But as I've grown older I've developed much better social skills to the level of NT really, or maybe an NT with social anxiety. I don't walk around with an odd gait or biting my nails nervously, like I used to when I was 13. I don't expect to be treated as a target any more, and the way people have been with me in public gives me a reason to worry that I look stupid or like an easy target, which could then increase the chances of me becoming a perfect target for violent gangs to pick on.



look they just make themselves look stupid but don't realise it
pity them

they are thick



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25 Aug 2022, 5:46 pm

they are not people you want a conversation with

ok if they know what they are doing..monkey throw s**t



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25 Aug 2022, 10:12 pm

It’s all in your head, and you’re hyperalert.

Yes. And I believe people who judge you are idiots, too, with nothing better to do.

That’s how I feel about people who go around looking at people for flaws.

I also believe, and it’s been proven by my observations, that most people really don’t give a rat’s butt about things beyond their immediate existence.

I used to have social anxiety. I couldn’t get agoraphobia because I hated being in my home when I was a kid.



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26 Aug 2022, 7:36 am

no sweetie its social phobia



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26 Aug 2022, 7:40 am

you're funny and you write well

its coming from someone published...yes believe it or not I had poetry published...

oddly

my essays at uni I was told were beautifly written and very well argued

I know a Good writer when I see one

autistic not stupid

and very kind at heart

but you really do write very well

you could be so very sweet

stop hating yourself please xx



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26 Aug 2022, 7:43 am

stop listening to other people so much



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26 Aug 2022, 7:47 am

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Joe90 wrote:
babybird wrote:
Joe90 wrote:
They don't know I clean coaches, they just see me as a litter picker or something when I go to the other building, and I'm usually quite dirty and just because I'm a woman I'm supposed to be clean and glamorous.

I'm so glad I'm not living in America where guns are legalised, because then I'll never go out or send my kids to school if I had kids.

"Grow a thicker skin" means "social anxiety and PTSD doesn't exist or is easily cured". I am going to therapy about this, so hopefully that will help. It's not just something I can get over.


I remember one time I was on the escalator in primark (years ago). There was two girls in front of me. One turned around and saw me. She immediately turned to fer friend, whispered something and they both turned back around, looked me up and down and started laughing. There was absolutely nothing wrong with what I looked like. I went home and worried about it for quite a long time until I remembered that actually I've been through too much in my life to allow these two people to own me in this way.

I also have ptsd, it's actually really serious so I know how things can get in your head.


I've had that happen a few times with girls, and each time it happened it just fueled my social anxiety. It happened regularly at high school, but I was less aware of my actions back then and probably did look weird. But as I've grown older I've developed much better social skills to the level of NT really, or maybe an NT with social anxiety. I don't walk around with an odd gait or biting my nails nervously, like I used to when I was 13. I don't expect to be treated as a target any more, and the way people have been with me in public gives me a reason to worry that I look stupid or like an easy target, which could then increase the chances of me becoming a perfect target for violent gangs to pick on.



look they just make themselves look stupid but don't realise it
pity them

they are thick



and I'm going to disagree with myself here cause I was in a bad mood when I posted it

*ahem*

they look thick....they might be smart

but they are still tits



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26 Aug 2022, 7:51 am

I've lost my tickle..;.



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26 Aug 2022, 7:52 am

I've found a tickle but I'm still missing one



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26 Aug 2022, 7:55 am

I'm missing 2

tickle emergency

actually l8sing a tickle really upsets me

I will look for 4he next 3 days

back to Joe

I am upset..tickle lost

social phobia



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26 Aug 2022, 7:57 am

I can't believe I got a grades at uni
how the f2ck did that happen....

and I got published

fookin ell



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26 Aug 2022, 8:02 am

Earthbound_Alien wrote:
Joe90 wrote:
babybird wrote:
Joe90 wrote:
They don't know I clean coaches, they just see me as a litter picker or something when I go to the other building, and I'm usually quite dirty and just because I'm a woman I'm supposed to be clean and glamorous.

I'm so glad I'm not living in America where guns are legalised, because then I'll never go out or send my kids to school if I had kids.

"Grow a thicker skin" means "social anxiety and PTSD doesn't exist or is easily cured". I am going to therapy about this, so hopefully that will help. It's not just something I can get over.


I remember one time I was on the escalator in primark (years ago). There was two girls in front of me. One turned around and saw me. She immediately turned to fer friend, whispered something and they both turned back around, looked me up and down and started laughing. There was absolutely nothing wrong with what I looked like. I went home and worried about it for quite a long time until I remembered that actually I've been through too much in my life to allow these two people to own me in this way.

I also have ptsd, it's actually really serious so I know how things can get in your head.


I've had that happen a few times with girls, and each time it happened it just fueled my social anxiety. It happened regularly at high school, but I was less aware of my actions back then and probably did look weird. But as I've grown older I've developed much better social skills to the level of NT really, or maybe an NT with social anxiety. I don't walk around with an odd gait or biting my nails nervously, like I used to when I was 13. I don't expect to be treated as a target any more, and the way people have been with me in public gives me a reason to worry that I look stupid or like an easy target, which could then increase the chances of me becoming a perfect target for violent gangs to pick on.

oh stop worrying about peeps

they is boring they do the same thing All the time


and I'm disagreeing with myself again

they can be funny sometimes

now...

I was feeling pissed erf

I like 2m really

they bemuse me

but they can still be tits

who wants a hug?
so dull don't care