time's moving really really slowly

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this summer just won't end. i've got three weeks of work left, then a week long intense rowing training camp and frosh week setup in the last week of august. i hate my job and it's wearing me out, i think it's the cause of my depression and i can't wait for it to be over because i'm looking forward to a lot of things in my life but work is draining all that away. i hope my depression goes away once my job's done, if not i'll see someone about it, probably the psychologist who diagnosed me with AS, or someone at the school disability centre.

anyways i'm off to work, wish me luck. my first client of the day'll probably be a royal b***h like she usually is but i'll be done with her in about 30 minutes so it shouldn't be too bad.

As for me, this summer was rushing until I resigned. Now I really enjoy doing nothing. And I'm going to do nothing till September when I'll start searching a new job

just thought about this when i was writing in the raves (wrote it there too). i just had 5 days off and i was happy, i didn't obsess about work the entire time. even when i thought about work it was easy to get out of my mind so it wasn't bad.

my parents have a cottage trailer in a park with a bunch of family members (it's a trailer park on a lake, people use them instead of cottages, we all have homes so they're not TOO trashy lol. cottages just cost too damn much, 1/2 million minimum) and my uncle was around (he's my boss) and even when i was talking with him i wasn't thinking/worrying about work, but as soon as i got the call on monday night about work it was like i was weighted down and depressed. at least i know not to work there next summer, and this time i'll actually find myself a good 9-5 air conditioned job.

I envy you so much. the first half of the summer went quickly. I don't remember May or June because i was so busy with work and rowing, but i was also much more miserable then. it eventually took its toll on me and i slowed down with rowing, i was usually missing evening practises because i didn't have the energy so i was just going to morning practises. i also slacked off a lot at work and it stressed me out because i'm not a slacker when i'm getting paid to work, so doing that messed me up. when i slowed my pace, time slowed.

i had a fun summer job in '05 and '06, before i started working at my current place. i worked at a go kart track with fun people and the job was enjoyable, despite having to deal with a lot of people. i think the fact that i had some authority over the customers helped me not get stressed about talking to so many of them because i had to enforce rules and my interaction with them generally followed certain rules so it was easy. problem with that job is that it doesn't pay enough for school and the hours don't allow me to row in the evenings, but it was really fun. i need either another job like that outside or a simple, mindless, 9-5 job inside so that i can just switch off and work during the day and row in the mornings and evenings. the physical demands of this job probably also don't help. i have to haul around heavy equipment, sand, etc. all while rowing competitively and working out intensely once or twice a day.

anyways this post's long enough, now i'm actually going to work, i hope i make it through the day.

Einstein had some interesting ideas about the speed at which time passes.

true, maybe i should start speeding, that might make it go by more quickly

Good luck with searching the new job then! Hope you'll find something interesting and your depression will go

Keeping busy is a surefire way to beat depression. With your mind occupied, you simply won't have time to reflect on your own misery. This has worked for me time and time again.

you see normally this works for me too, but now i'm too busy and i'm mostly busy with something i don't enjoy. rowing has helped me get through a lot this summer, but that can only get me so far, and when i have a bad day/week at rowing it's that much worse because of work. oh well, i'll make it through, i just had to rant a bit.

Don't bother. You'll never atttain the speed of light.

you've obviously never seen me run

Yes, time is moving painfully slow. But it won't be much longer now. I'll be back in college in exactly two weeks, in addition to social skills classes.

Be careful what you wish for.
As you age, time speeds up. Weeks go by like days, and months like weeks. Every couple of months it's your frigging birthday again.
It keeps getting faster. I swear it was just 2004 a couple of months ago.
Wring every drop of fun out of youth. It's the longest part of your life. Take it from a 37-year-old who doesn't know where the last ten years went.