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Samara
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05 Dec 2008, 10:08 am

because i have been very borderline this year and in crisis and people think i am a freak and people on WP proberly think I am a freak too :cry: :cry: :cry:
It makes me sad becausee i want is to belong. At the same time i am very honest person so maybe i should just try and act more aspie.
I go out to have a good time and i end up swearing at every one.
I stand there looking at people with crazy eyes and i tell people after they leave the atm i want some money.
Its not who i really am.



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05 Dec 2008, 10:13 am

i like you, everybody here is my brother and sister, even if sometimes im not nice, in the long run i like every aspie

and im sure no one here think you are a freak,

im going trought a lot lately, the panic attack got real bad, everyone thinks im going to go crazy and start shooting people, but that's life, it is always like that for me, but when i go home at the end of the day, my cats are always happy to see me, and they love me, and i made spagetti last night so im happy ! !!

it only matters if you love yourself, if you do in the long run others will start loving you too ... might take some time but it works ...

good luck



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05 Dec 2008, 10:18 am

I dont think you're a freak, I welcome you're input on the Random discussion.

Hope you feel better soon.............



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05 Dec 2008, 10:19 am

Other people do want to be my friend and i have friends and they try and try but i dont stay in contact. I have meet men that are really nice. Who i think why did i push them away because sometimes i am so angry but at the same time i still want to be close to some one.
Thank you for your comment and to i wanna blue. I feel better already :D



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05 Dec 2008, 10:25 am

thats just classic symptoms of BPD.........

Can you see a psychologist and talk about this?..........

try to make the most of your friends, I dont even have any and by knowing you're better I feel better (i like to help)



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05 Dec 2008, 10:42 am

I am being case managed by the psych service and have my own case manager, who is like a social worker i can talk to plus regular appointments with the psychiatrist. i have one appointment soon but i dont wanna go. Its christmas soon and she left me a message that she will see me before xmas but she will be on holiday after that. They dont really care about me.
I have a clinical psychologist i can see and i really like her. I just have to get a other referral. Medicare covers most of it.



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05 Dec 2008, 11:53 am

Samara wrote:
because i have been very borderline this year and in crisis and people think i am a freak and people on WP proberly think I am a freak too :cry: :cry: :cry:
It makes me sad becausee i want is to belong. At the same time i am very honest person so maybe i should just try and act more aspie.
I go out to have a good time and i end up swearing at every one.
I stand there looking at people with crazy eyes and i tell people after they leave the atm i want some money.
Its not who i really am.


Samara you do not sound any more of a freak than the average human being. I on the other hand, fear that I may be on the brink of becoming completely unhinged inside, yet still able to conceal this not only from the public but even from my family and friends, not wishing to worry them unduly. Perhaps we could advise each other?


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05 Dec 2008, 11:56 am

Look by my Law of Proportional Circumstances, if you feel that way, must like others do as well. Everyone who has felt any emotion has had other people feel that emotion as well.

Trust me, been there, that's how I know and that's why I formulated that Law and quite frankly it's very true.

Also remember the Law of Attraction, if you say people don't love you, then they won't, but if you say they do, they will.

Quite frankly, I haven't seen you exhibit anything freakish even by my standard of non-neurotypical behavior. (P.s. Why is neurotypical in red?).



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05 Dec 2008, 12:09 pm

Hi Samara. I think most of us, if not all, with Asperger's (or other spectrum) go through times like this. I think it is because we feel like those not on the spectrum don't understand us. And they probably don't. And it is hard for us to understand what it's like to be NT. But I have come to understand this---since we often misread others, whenever I feel like people don't like me it is probably because I misread them. And they probably do like me fine. It's important to love yourself. Whenever I am feeling blue, I like to absorb into my interests. Or, I might get the computer and play a game of solitaire. Or, I might get on the WrongPlanet and coorespond. You know, all of us that are Aspies share a bond with each other. We are like brothers and sisters. For the most part, we all want the best for each other---including you. So if you feel like no one cares about you, just read the posts started by your message---"We care for you."

Like you, I am going to be starting sessions with a social worker. My first session is next weekend. I have no idea what it's going to be like. I get a little nervous just thinking about it. But why should I get nervous? I'm not going to get some magic Pencillin injection or anything like that. All we are going to be discussing is what has always been me. Nothing can change that. But I am going for some coaching skills to help me with some social issues. I want to be a better father and husband. I welcome that kind of help for me. If you think there is any chance your counseling sessions can help you, please attend them.

Lastly, I hope for you the happiness you deserve in life. We're all here for you in the WrongPlanet. I hope you enjoy the holidays.



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05 Dec 2008, 12:18 pm

Thankyou thats lovely :)



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05 Dec 2008, 2:57 pm

you're Meh Friend.... If you want to talk then you can always pm me... also if you just need to talk to somebody... I dont mind... 8)


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05 Dec 2008, 3:17 pm

News Flash: There is no such thing as "Love"!

... at least, not in the altruistic sense of the word. Everybody expects something in return for their "love," even if it's only a warm, fuzzy feeling.

So what if nobody "loves" you? Once you realize that relationships are all about quid-pro-quo transactions, you'll expect much less from those you "love" and be much better off for it.



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07 Dec 2008, 11:48 pm

I don't think you're a freak. I'd also never call anybody a freak. I've been called a freak, once. I know how painful it feels to be seen as one.


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08 Dec 2008, 12:20 am

I find you entertaining here.

I really don't know what is "suppose" to be normal and what isn't unless I can't make sense out of a person. Just look at my sig and you'll see what I mean. I never felt normal or socially apt to feeling like I could "fit in".

So I can sort of relate to what you've posted. Anyway, I think you're cool, you just probably have issues you're dealing with and that can be tough more than some people can realize if they aren't going through with it themselves. I know I have a hard time functiontiong in my real way when everything is at me all at once. Hell just recently I lost my grandfather not too long after my grandmother. I reacted pretty bad around people close to me and didn't know why.

So you're not completely along. Hugs girl, I think you're cool.


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Samara
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08 Dec 2008, 12:30 am

Thanks Msconstrue. I think your cool too 8) Your my sister.

and fnord i beleive in love.



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08 Dec 2008, 12:30 am

Thanks Msconstrue. I think your cool too 8) Your my sister.

and fnord i beleive in love.