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Stark-raving insanity and my lack of giving two-f's about it or anyone anymore.

I wish my ears weren't so sensitive to certain sounds. Today in the supermarket this toddler let out an ear-splitting scream and I had to shield my ear nearest to it because it hurt.
I hate when people give me pragmatic crap like "oh kids will always scream, there's nothing you can do about it, deal with it" because that is just unhelpful.
It's difficult to deal with something when it causes you physical pain. I envy most NTs because they seem able to choose what noises they get annoyed or upset with, and are able to rationalise it. I'm sorry, but I can't do that. My brain does not have those kinds of filters or ability to rationalise emotions. To me an offending noise is an offending noise. To NTs an offending noise is only deliberate noise. So a loud frog horn or a balloon popping can upset an NT, but a kid screaming at the top of its lungs can make an NT completely unperturbed because their fantastic brains are able to block the emotional reaction by a message saying "it's just a baby/toddler, that is what they do, can't do anything to stop it, do not feel any emotions about this situation, except sympathy."
My brain is missing that superpower. I don't have it. Sorry. So the next time someone gives me the clichéd crap, just f**k off.

2 meetings, several chores, and too many reminders.

Subbing for someone for over a week... Next week is the 3rd week. Said subbing would also mean going to work at 7am the whole weekdays...

Cannot wait for the quietest holiday of this country.

But also the month would be over.
And when this month's over...

No more unplanned spending until May.

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I would like to say thanks to the following people as being very honorable persons:
Isabella Linton, TwilightPrinces, jennyishere, and jakk, Where_ Am_ I for showing a great deal of internal courage and honor despite your own torments within your life.

I'm afraid I might be becoming a bit more human and I find it incredibly disturbing.

I think I can understand, though not completely

I love sitting outside and getting to listen to birds. The fact that I might not be able to do this in a decade or two is terrifying and depressing though.

Trying to mentally communicate to my partner to get out of bed and cook me breakfast NOW.
Please??

Hoping thar IsabellaLinton TwilightPrincess & Where_am_I are doing OK..

I'm going to attempt to make a new friend tomorrow. :')