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I haven't worn anything that looks like a Stahlhelm for a little over a month and I feel a little smug about it. Is it the right thing to do if I feel smug?

I'm proud that Germany won the bronze in Wheelchair Basketball. They've never won a medal before in that sport.

Truth #2. I'm a poor example of a Canadian who has a British last name. Even though I do have a British last name, my dad has a bit of German heritage on his side of the family. I take after the Germans.

I'd like to travel back to the 60s and have a Beatle haircut.

I was born in the wrong body, in the wrong decade and in the wrong country. I should have been born in a male body in the Mid-40s in Germany.

I am not asexual

I've stayed away from relationships for 30 years.

I'm sad because the Paralympics are over and I feel like crying.

Most of my self worth is tied to how much I know that others do not know, perceived, figured it out, comprehend or understand.

Nothing to do with what I can or cannot do, have or do not have.
More like based on what others don't have, cannot have, don't do, cannot do but I have, can have, do have, can do...

It would've been so easy for me to fall into the know-it-all and show-off territories, but I like it better to keep it all to myself than brag them.

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I love smokies and onions.

I'd like to own a lederhosen one day.

I've spiritually awoken at age of 24. 'The initiation' of sorts.

I barely knew how to meditate.
And it was barely a month, up to barely a hour total worth of time spent.
With a thought I told out loud that I'm simply so, so sick of myself.

Many accounts suggests it took them years.
Plenty needed medication on top of it, too.

And others had to ended up into something drastic like being abandoned constantly, losing everything or a literal near death experience.

I did not had to.
So yeah, my own biggest problem IS myself.

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Black, res and yellow are my favourite colours and I wish to travel to Germany one day.

I couldn't keep looking at myself. I thought I could do The Monkees. If this site is still around in 2 years, I will be ready to do The Monkees. I've just stopped using Schultz nearly 2 months ago.

Whenever I self test myself with Camouflaging Autistic Traits Questionnaire, it's always within the 60s range -- at least over 30 points lower than the average neurotypical.

The score for camouflaging autistics is over 100.
The average aspie has over 110s, and the average NT has 90-100s.

... Quite a disparity as to how I cannot relate well to so many common experiences in socializing.


I'm very aware of how people would treat me.
Me not masking makes them all rather more predictable... Which is the complete opposite of what most maskers do to feel safe.


Yeah, I'm a full blown autistic.
Yet not necessarily a 'target'.

Even my own childhood approach to hostile socialization is different; essentially violence and standing out proudly instead of either standing out ashamed or being invisible.



My own sped teacher told me, it can be parental influence and attitudinal inference.

Most parents she spoke are ashamed and very self conscious of having an ND kid -- making them somewhat anxious or defensive over their kids' differences, before or after diagnosis.

... My mom apparently isn't.
Which do reflect my experience and how she treated me after diagnosis so far.

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I'm badly in need of a haircut

I last had a haircut in the 80s