nihilist_void wrote:
reason this is such a big deal to me is because I'm Asian and in the Asian culture if you're male and you cry then its considered disgraceful. I'm always ostracized for it. Yesterday there was a misunderstanding between me and the girl I am head over heals for (first relationship) and when I was under the impression she was leaving me, I started crying very heavily. When she called she already knew I had been crying and after we got done talking she told me how embarrassing it is to hear me cry.
I hated myself for it, especially since it was over a girl.
In my mind, crying heavily when you think you are going to lose someone you have deep feelings for is a very natural reaction (for most, but I won't condemn those who don't) and it is absolutley nothing to be ashamed of. Its obviously natural for you and if this is how you feel you should not bottle it up, it will do you more harm than good in the long run. And as for your girlfriend, I think she may only be embarrassed to hear you cry because, when a man cries, it is usually over something very major and men don't cry very often. So when it does happen, some people don't know how to deal with it and I think this may have been the case with your girlfriend, I don't think she thinks badly of you for it.
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