What's on your mind right now?
Wanna do something different, new and fun
But financially broke, socially awkward, scared, lazy, apathetic, physically weak, mentally slow
There's someone that I want to interact with
He sometimes goes to a certain activity on Wednesday
But the activity lasts only one hour
And there are other precious lil "people"
Appetite gone haywire
Craving
Cheddar, lasagna, tacos, jalepino, refried beans, fried chicken, mashed potatoes, stuffing, ice cream,
But too expensive
And trying to lose weight
My "life" is like Sisyphus
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Not much, actually.
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since this guest house was built, no landscaping has been done, so it’s mostly surrounded by rock and dirt aside from the east facing the main house. could probably landscape it personally, but aesthetic tastes conflict with the family’s generally. not sure a koi pond would do so well here, or things like a cherry tree, though, magnolias appear to do fine.
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I don't know why I've been extra dizzy the past two or three days. It's something that ordinarily happens to me occasionally (probably because I have low blood pressure), but it's been significantly worse lately for some reason. It's getting to the point where that combined with the rare occasions where my hip will feel just fine while I'm sitting/lying down but when I get up will not support my weight (I do have issues with pain in both my hips, and suspect that's related), I think I'm going to have to teach my service dog to "brace," so he'll come to me and stand firm so he can support/steady me. It's just really annoying because it seems like all my little health complaints like this (I have a good number, none of which have been that much of a problem on their own until fairly recently) are getting worse lately, and this is just another thing to have to deal with.
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do you get enough water and salt? do you feel your heart race or skip beats right before you get dizzy? a check-up wouldn't be the worst idea. it could be anemia. a blood count would show it. maybe you need iron. i don't recommend taking iron if you're not anemic because it can cause nausea and constipation. heavy periods can make you anemic. there are other posibilities. just an example.
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do you get enough water and salt? do you feel your heart race or skip beats right before you get dizzy? a check-up wouldn't be the worst idea. it could be anemia. a blood count would show it. maybe you need iron. i don't recommend taking iron if you're not anemic because it can cause nausea and constipation. heavy periods can make you anemic. there are other posibilities. just an example.
I do probably need to drink more water - I often don't think to have any until I'm really thirsty. I don't feel anything odd with my heart rate when it happens. Mostly it's when I stand up or bend over, which is why I think it's probably due to my low blood pressure. I also haven't been remembering to take my multivitamin, which has some iron - I should probably start doing that again. Since I'm a vegetarian, it's probably not a bad idea for me to be getting supplemental iron. I'm also overdue for a checkup, I can ask for a blood draw then to see if I'll need an iron supplement in addition to the multivitamin and see what my doctor thinks about it, if I'm still having this issue. Thank you for the advice
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Yet in my new wildness and freedom I almost welcome the bitterness of alienage. For although nepenthe has calmed me, I know always that I am an outsider; a stranger in this century and among those who are still men.
-H. P. Lovecraft, "The Outsider"
do you get enough water and salt? do you feel your heart race or skip beats right before you get dizzy? a check-up wouldn't be the worst idea. it could be anemia. a blood count would show it. maybe you need iron. i don't recommend taking iron if you're not anemic because it can cause nausea and constipation. heavy periods can make you anemic. there are other posibilities. just an example.
I do probably need to drink more water - I often don't think to have any until I'm really thirsty. I don't feel anything odd with my heart rate when it happens. Mostly it's when I stand up or bend over, which is why I think it's probably due to my low blood pressure. I also haven't been remembering to take my multivitamin, which has some iron - I should probably start doing that again. Since I'm a vegetarian, it's probably not a bad idea for me to be getting supplemental iron. I'm also overdue for a checkup, I can ask for a blood draw then to see if I'll need an iron supplement in addition to the multivitamin and see what my doctor thinks about it, if I'm still having this issue. Thank you for the advice
you're welcome. getting light-headed with position changes is called orthostatic hypotension. it's common in petite people, especially young women. so, you are right about it likely being your BP. the fact that your pattern has changed is a bit concerning, though.
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My "life" is like Sisyphus.
A fifth year electrical engineering undergrad told me that if she were to have wasted as much time studying, as I did, she would have gotten straight A's.
And her major was harder than mine.
And I flunked out of that subject.
Regardless of what I do not eat, I am still fatter than other Chinese men and women
Nobody has the authority to "help" my worthless corpse
Maybe the greatest thing they can assist me with is by ignoring me
Plan, goal, dream, reality, delusional
Fantasies will never come true:
Infantry
Combat engineer
Structural engineer
Writer
Skinny smart handsome cisgender white man
Precious lil "friends"
Clinical depression
Autism
Six out of ten personality disorders diagnosed by Dept of Rehab
The April showers that most of British Columbia are getting right now. I remember asking my mum why we got so much rain one time when I was 8. The conversation did not go well.
Me: Why do we get so much rain where we live?
Mother: The British brought it with them when they came.
Me: I hate the British.
Mother: You're lucky your dad isn't here right now. He'd be very hurt if he heard you say that!
Me: Why?
Mother: Because most of his ancestors were British.
Me: Oops.....
This makes me feel guilty enough to show that side of me again. It must be the weather.
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"A true, true friend helps a friend in need."
Precious lil "people" act morally innocent, academically smart, socially cool. Self righteous, big egoes condescending
Ain't got no precious lil "friends"
In the past, former precious lil "friends" had the nerve to tell me off when I cam out as trans.
Nothing to do in "life"
So afraid to trust anyone because they might suddenly turn on me
And I ain't psychic or telepathic so I don't know who will suddenly turn on me
Precious lil "people" have more resources than me:. Authority, cash, skill, friends, big egoes, confidence, IQ, higher metabolism
So if and when they suddenly turn on me, they win the competition. Even if they do not have the moral high road.
So it's like I should not interact with anyone with more resources than me
Which is a small group
And they do not necessarily want to interact with me
And whatever
Wish I was in the military
Get some respect
Get treated like a hero
Enlisted, officer
Army, Navy
Military occupational specialty
Deployment
Purple heart
Reserves, active duty
Doesn't matter
A soldier's military occupational specialty could just only be Shower Laundry Repair, and some civilians treat them like heroes
Martyr
That's how I want to get treated
But MEPs disqualifiers
Autism
Gender identity disorder
Clinical depression
Anxiety
Irritable bowel syndrome
Obsessive compulsive disorder
Over six months of professional counseling
At least
Can't join Chair Force
Affection, belonging, recognition, motivation, purpose