When did you realize...

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that you were out of the mainstream? I realized this during 1974 when Disco was ushered in - I didn't fit - I was a misfit. If only what we know today existed back then. Wow. Well at least my adult children and my grand kids will have it better.

I felt like that my whole life. I didn't fit in & was bullied when I started kindergarten & it lasted till I started going to a skewl for dyslexia in the middle of 6th grade. The bullying stopped but I still did not fit in.

I was bullied a lot during my grade school and middle school years, but during the latter is when things got worse for me.

My father passed the day after I turned 12 and a pair of bullies (along with two teachers) saw it as a reason to justify making the remainder of my middle school years difficult and because of this, I felt compelled to keep my father's passing a secret until my senior year of high school.

I can not ever remember thinking I was mainstream.

I knew there was something different as a child, but my awareness of not being mainstream didn't kick in till adolescence.

When I started studying history and realized it felt more normal living back then as living today. It's like my brain has no "normal" setting, so I could technically feel at home in any situation, as normal as it gets at least, because I feel out of place anywhere and anytime.

I was probably different my whole life, but I would say my understanding of being different emerged when I was in the fourth grade.

When I was diagnosed around age 60. I was always so overwhelmed and afraid, even when people would say "you are really different", I did not understand.