jashley wrote:
I feel like people at my church hate me and dislike me and are always suspicious of me
They always ignore me when I try to say hi to them and they plan things in front of me that Im never invited to and then act annoyed when they all leave and my ride is late so I am still waiting. Like what do you want me to do leave and start walking? And because no one talks to me or says hi and they try to avoid me and block me out of their circles when I try to join them, other people act annoyed and suspicious by saying things like "Um, do you need something? Are you looking for something?!?!" In an annoyed and suspicous voice. Like Im not doing anything wrong, just because I am standing around trying to say hi to people and join their conversations and they are shutting me out so I give up and just stand there, Do you want me to leave? Because that is what I feel like they are saying.
If I were in your shoes, I would most definitely stop going there and go "shopping" for another church. It sounds like you are not welcome at that one. Even if you were an NT, that kind of behavior to
anyone speaks volumes about that church, and says that they are not a very Godly bunch. It's extremely rude, borderline bullying, and they seem more preoccupied with the notion of earned trust rather than tolerance, acceptance, and welcoming behavior.
There are thousands of churches around (I'm even looking into starting one myself), and just because one doesn't welcome you doesn't mean none of them well. Keep looking, I promise you'll find something!