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I got yelled at when I said that last time.

Even though I know this person is probably a troll, or if not, well, some sort of clueless, still, I want to share the observation...

I think a doctor who sent a note like that would be very unprofessional.

To be frank, I'd be upset. Years of pain and the constant feeling of having nothing to do with the people around me, experiences only others on the spectrum share... these have three explanations that I can think of.

1. That my current dx (Asperger's Syndrome) is correct
2. That I'm very lazy and high-strung and a little stupid
3. That I will go on to develop schizophrenia

In addition to robbing me of the right to be part of the only community where people are truly like me, where I don't have to pretend to be something I'm not, it would mean that I had either deep and unattractive character flaws or a debilitating chronic illness that had not even begun to show itself in full.

It would mean instead of having true and valid issues that do not preclude me from being a valuable human being and having skills shared by few, I would instead just... be handling things worse than normal?

It would mean I didn't have executive function issues-- I would simply be lazy.

I wouldn't have a legitimate disability in social interaction-- I'd just be the sort of person nobody likes.

I wouldn't have an off-kilter way of perceiving the world-- I'd just be high-strung.

Most of all, I admit that my diagnosis lets me feel like... like I have permission to be myself, because I'm not supposed to be normal. I would feel like that had been taken away.

...This is all assuming I believed the letter. Which I probably wouldn't, because I know what I feel and think and I know how similar my experiences are to those of the people here, and how different they are from most other people's.

Same way with me. I was told by a couple docs that they suspected I had AS but when I got officially tested; the doc said I communicated to well verbally to be autistic. Every other doc I saw sense seemed to think that I do not have anything on the autism spectrum; docs seem to think autism is a less sever from of mental retardation. I can not qualify for any autism specific social services do to not having an official diagnoses. I think the docs are kind of like scam artist who refer me to people so their friends c an get in on the action. I have to sign over all my legal rites to hold a doc liable for anything before I am allowed to see em. My dad work's in construction & those docs houses cost millions of dollars & they billed me a couple thousand dollars more then they agreed to for the testing. I had to pay to avoid credit problems. I wonder if I can become a doc