Do I look different than I think I do?

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On a more thoughtful note, no matter how hard I try to act and be normal, people say I'm different. My boss said so, but not in a negative way. It's just something indefinable and I guess it's more interesting than to be a mass produced version...

I've always thought I looked somewhat weird. I now try to camouflage it by dressing alternatively. I just have a hard time finding alternative clothes and my parents didn't let me dye my hair crazy colors when I was a teen. I'm still mad about that. I bet I would have been happier if I looked alternative instead of awkward.

The people around me told me I don't look different but I think there are a few things that differentiate those with autism and others.
One of the main aspects is the posture. Most of the autists I know walk and sit pretty uneven.
And I stand extremely correct and straight while I sit totally uneven too. I can't do it otherwise.
Neurotypical people seem to have no problems with having a "healthy" posture.

This! So this. I walk "weird" and in kind of a stilted way (and in fact, I trip and fall a lot) and when I'm sitting, I never know where to put my hands and feet. Where they "naturally" seem to land apparently looks strange to other people. Also the way I hold my head (just things I've been told randomly by people who would never have even thought of the word "autism" connected with any of this).

there are so many PHYSICAL things about autism that I never would have connected, but all of my autie friends have/share, and admittedly when compared with NTs IS really weird/different. So, when I hear that I can understand that; it's just the mental differences that seem harder to deal with. (for me at least)