I am and have always been slow at what I do. In school I finished tests last (or among the last), I was always last to finish up when we did experiments, and I did tasks slow even in subjects where I excelled. Also in other areas I’m slow, cleaning up, writing letters, you name it. I use a lot of time formulating sentences I use in writing.
I don’t know why. I can be a perfectionist in regards to some projects (especially writing). I have a hard time getting started and knowing where to start when a task overwhelms me, and if a task is boring I can’t go at it for more than a very short time before I’m off to la-la-land (and before that I’m even slower than usual). And even when doing tasks I like, I’m easily distracted, and keep losing my focus, spacing out, getting lost in thoughts.
If someone is behind me or leans over me, I lean over what I’m doing, unable to go on as long as he/she is there and also unwilling to let anyone see the unfinished product, even a teacher to whom I might deliver the paper 5 minutes later.
If I’m rushed or stressed I get even slower and can get to the point where I feel completely confused and words just stop making sense.
But once I get into hyper focus, for instance when I’m writing and have the contents ready in my mind, I can actually be quick, as long as it’s silent around me so I can reach that point.
I wonder why so many of us are like that.