Sweetleaf wrote:
Oh I agree I probably should not feel like I'm not welcome to post here whenever I choose, provided I do my best not to break all the forum rules. But it just does not make it any easier not to feel that way I mean its like when you walk into a room of people who don't like you and can't help feeling a little awkward and wanting to leave even if they don't actually say anything to you and are tolerating your prescense but just the vibes you know....I guess the walking into a room would be worse though.
But yes I would like to figure out how not to care so much about that sort of thing.
I can relate. On this other forum I used to frequent, I felt very involved at first. I had a lot fun posting there, but as time went on, it felt as though many veteran posters were annoyed by me (if they acknowledged my posts at all). Sometimes, I tried to explain myself in words, or I'd genuinely apoligise for things I'd gone wrong. But then, they'd accuse me of "passive aggressiveness".
Here on Wrong Planet, I've always posted with a bit of distance, if that makes sense. Never got as involved in the community as I did on the other forum, though there are a lot of posters I always look forward to reading new posts from. But that emotional distance allows me to post here and avoid the drama. I'm mostly unaware of any animosity between posters going on here. Returning to the other forum, I now post with the same attitude as here. I just remember that it's just words on a screen, and it's supposed to be fun (and in the case of Wrong Planet, also supportive sometimes.)
I guess I just kinda got excited because I was really enjoying it here.....so It started becoming a bit more important to me so I did not have such a distance. But on most forums I usually do have more distance between myself and the site, Its like I just got too comfortable here and for whatever reason it was not meant to continue.