If you were bullied at school, did it...

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The bulling that I received at school broke me, but than I learned something from those experiences. I became a gentle soul and decided that I wasn't going to hurt anybody in any way. I guess that I was fearful and angry for the first 34 years of my life, than I learned something from it and chose a gentle soul for a role model. My parents weren't good role models for me and I promised myself that I wouldn't be like them. That's the reason that I chose Mick Avory to be my role model.

It broke me, I was only 6 when the worst of it started, both verbel and physical from kids and teachers, perhaps it would have been better if it happend at a later age like highschool however I think given the age I was the effects became so ingrained into my thought process and personallty that theres no way to completely heal the damage and gets in the way of life alot. I don't recall having the issues with anxiety, trust, self-doubt and depression that I have now before the bullying. I naturally came up with a few coping stratigys after a few years as a child, all were in reallity not very good ideas at all and in the long term were/are detrimantal to me as far as making and keeping friends, being social, active and outgoing etc. Its alot to try to unlearn.