Ashariel wrote:
I'll vote yes, just because you don't strike me as NT.
Sorry it's such a long wait for the test. I wish I could express to those who are waiting (or don't have access to testing) what I have come to realize, after finally having a super-official ASD diagnosis.
You STILL wonder. In my case - which of my symptoms are due to ASD, vs. PTSD? Are my personality traits better explained as Schizoid/Schizotypal? And then, even with a rock-solid diagnosis, you'll still get people saying "but you don't seem autistic" (or continuing to simply not care, as they didn't before).
NT's tend to prefer to just think of you as 'just a person', not so different from them. They want to downplay your differences - which in a way is kind, but in another way invalidates our struggles, in trying to seem 'normal'. Seeming vs. Being are two different things, and it's utterly exhausting to have to put on an act, your entire life.
Anyway I wish you the best in coming to understand your issues, and hope you can get some answers soon!
Thanks. I think I have already found some answers. The main one being that I now know what I have been experiencing most of my life since the age of about six or seven onwards... Have been partial shutdowns and shutdowns. I never knew what they were and could not describe them that well to doctors.
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