The "Do You Think I Am On The Autistic Spectrum" (MG) Poll.

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I have come in for a rest. I was trying to reach a crate I have under other crates. I promised a guy months ago I would get his bike working. Whoever he paid to service it before didn't really know a lot so I am slowly sorting things that were done wrong. Is something which used to take me an afternoon or less is taking me months. I keep having to stop to prevent myself shutting down.
Currently the crate is at the bottom of a lot of crates which need all my bicycles removing so I can reach it, and the thought of doing that caused me to be a bit overwealmed... So I have come in to relax.


Is funny. My Mum had said that I had mid life crises. Why oh why do I get struggles, when other people get a Porsche? It's not fair!

Well. I am ever so slowly improving. A week or so ago and I would not get this far. At least I have adjusted the cones on his rear wheel as these were lose... Looks as if whoever serviced the bike didn't tighten them. Someone also had applied bearing grease to the chain because the bottom bracket was lose, and the chainset was rubbing on the front mech. You wouldn't believe it would you!! !

Anyway... I think I need to put things away and tackle finding the part another time as we need to head out for the afternoon to buy a few things in the local shop.

One of my fingers is also playing up as it was crushed when I was working a few months ago. I think the bone is playing up. The finger that had the most force on it seems ok. When it happened I could not book it in the accident book (Now online) as I was close to shutting down and I had to direct my thoughts away from the event to prevent a shutdown. I knew the bones had been crushed, but to book it means a hospital visit... And I would spend likely the whole evening not being able to recover from a shutdown. (The hospital bleach smell and the long corridors (With striplights though I don't think lights usually effect me)... And if I shut down it looks like fainting and hospital staff try to bring me out by asking me lots of questions like "When were you born? What day is it? How old are you? What is your name?" etc. I have to really think hard to remember my own name, let alone make sense of what they have said when comingnout of a shutdown... And being forced out of one by tapping my hand or face etc and trying to force me to talk makes me go deeper into shutting down! If I told them that I might be on the autistic spectrum, would they then not do this and wait for me to recover in my own time? Probably not! Haha. They try their best, but shutdowns are different to fainting, and they are used to dealing with fainting).

Anyway. I will see if I need to put things back for now and get the car out ready to go to get corn and a shop for two or three things.

I didn't get to bed until 0700am becase I was too mentally active after feeling wierd in the evening and having a low pulse rate and high blood pressure. Shhh!

I am thinking now that I might be on the spectrum. Uhmm. I am diagnosing myself. Haha.