LipstickKiller wrote:
I'm me in my avatar (hmm, odd statement)
I'm one of those pretty-ugly people, I think. Some people think I'm pretty but I've also heard a lot of the opposite. I think I look better and probable more normal when I remember to correct my facial expression. A lot of the time I just stare blankly with really big eyes. I can kind of "act" pretty in the right context.
It's not terribly important for me to be pretty, but I'm careful to control my appearance and I used mirrors a lot as a kid. I just couldn't get a hold of myself. I don't really know what I look like, I can't put the pieces together, it's just random features.
My psychologist says I have a heavy control agenda. I guess make-up and clothing is a way of controlling what I look like. Sometimes I freak out when I catch a glimpse of myself, it's like my facial features a all over the place.
Umm, tangent.
I think I'd very likely be targeted for sexual exploitation if I met people's eye more. I can't tell when someone's interested in me or to what end. I'd hate to accuse someone falsely so I give them the benefit of the doubt. Can't tell when people lie or try to pull a fast one. But I've made it a rule to only engage in sexual contact when I fall in love and I rarely do. Also, since I haven't been single much and cheating is impossible, I'm not really on the market. And I've rarely been to any parties or clubs without a boyfriend, brother or trusted male friend. That tends to scare the bad men away.
Sometimes it's just the angle, but your avatar looks so much like me that it gives me a jolt every time I see it. Particularly the eyes. I saw a picture in a friends college yearbook once of a girl lying in the grass with her eyes closed and I couldn't tell it wasn't me, but I knew that it wasn't. Anyway, like I said sometimes it's just the angle. Like you I don't know if I'm pretty or not. I've had plenty of people tell me I am but I suspect just as many think not.That's the downside of having sharp features.
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