Do you ever feel like you're trapped inside yourself??

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I know I am trapped by the world if I am myself.
So I lock myself and look at the world from a distance, it's a softer trap.

Constantly.

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"Standing on a well-chilled cinder, we see the fading of the suns, and try to recall the vanished brilliance of the origin of the worlds."
-Georges Lemaitre
"I fly through hyperspace, in my green computer interface"
-Gem Tos

I spent many years trying to destroy that part of me that was so different from everyone that I knew. There was absolutely no awareness when I was a child of what this all might mean. There was just something really "wrong" with me and it came close to making me crazy. There seemed to be a chasm between "me" and the world.

Sean

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Renal kidney failure, congestive heart failure, COPD. Can't really get up from a floor position unhelped anymore:-(.
One of the walking wounded ~ SMASHED DOWN by life and age, now prevented from even expressing myself! SOB.
" Oh, no! First you have to PROVE you deserve to go away to college! " ~ My mother, 1978 (the heyday of Andy Gibb and Player). I would still like to go.
My life destroyed by Thorazine and Mellaril - and rape - and the Psychiatric/Industrial Complex. SOB:-(! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !! !!

coming at it with a different tack, I was trapped inside myself in terms of not knowing just how alien I was. I was the thing that wouldn't leave but I didn't know it.