Do i have Aspergers , ADD , NLD or just in a big depression?

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Thanks on the advice on positive thinking. It something i think about it. I have been to the doctor today. He advised me to go to the same pscychologist. Is this a good advice or? Should i stay with the one, i went last year to?

I think your doctor is right about you seeing a psychologist. And I'm pretty sure you are negative because you are depressed and that's probably linked to your other problems.

However, if you feel that your psychologist hadn't help you or could not give you the answers you needed, you should find another one, it can be hard to find a good psychologist sometimes. It all depends on how you feel about the psychologist, it's never a good thing to see someone you don't like or you feel is unable to help you.

Of cource but still....

biggerfred.....would you mind telling me how old you are?


Many of your issues and experiences sound fairly similar to my own.


I also place the highest value on intelligence, knowledge and learning. In fact....there is nothing in the universe which is more important to me.


Still...to paraphrase Jesus Christ...the spirit is very willing...but the flesh of my brain seems very weak.

Both because of comprehension issues when it comes to math/science/mechanical reasoning and the memory problems I believe I have.


I have taken seven professionally-administered IQ tests in my life and obtained a high average or better score (FSIQ) on five out of the seven. I scored in the very superior range (143) on one the recent ones I took. I scored low average (94) on one and squarely in the average range (104) on the most recent IQ test I had. There is always a large discrepancy between my verbal and performance IQ scores (in favor of verbal) though. I usually score in the superior-very superior ranges on verbal and i've scored everywhere from the borderline to high average range on performance.


I have been told my neuropsychological characteristics are reflective of "classic" NLD/NVLD and schizoid/schizotypal personality disorder.


Almost every psychologist/neuropsychologist who has ever given me formal neuropsychological tests has told me this.

Well... i can't have NLD , i think. It's because i don't have terrible visio- spatial skills. I can conceptualize my house, i can track my whole city. I can rotate 3d objects like a chair or table. I learn easier though seeing then hearing etc. etc. I can't draw but it may also be that i haven't learned how to draw properly. I want to learn how to write both handed and i'm going to do that soon. I also understand non verbal signals. I know when someone is angry, happy, sad etc. I use body language and i understand body language of others. I only have problems with eye contact because that's more to do with concentrating. I do look at peoples eyes, ofc. But doing it too long creates a situation where i forget what they say. People with ADD have trouble with that too. People with NLD don't do it because they don't understand the reasons of eye contact or body language.

I am very good at remembering faces. Far less then names. I don't like rules and i'm pretty open minded, don't enjoy concrete thinking etc. I am very impulsive, have behavior issues like anxciety, anger issues and i know all of this is pointless, yes... it makes no sense to be angry or to hit myself. But i know it's addictive and i've got it since my childhood.

I'm not afraid of death and in a way i am. I will never accept this and i can't whine because i still haven't done anything.

When i have readed books, doing math, intensively thinking about thinking processes ( sounds stupid oke but it's not), drawing etc. If then, nothing works and i have not improved, i think i go to a far land and jump of a mountain or something like that. I know i can think far enough in future situations that if i would be like this my whole life, it would be pointless and death would give me more meaning then living.

If i can change, i travel the wold to change my character, my personality. I don't care about materialism or money or status. I want to search in myself and don't want to be struck in that situation anymore. Before i would do that, i want to learn, to acknowledge things. 1 year ---> 1 year in the big plains. 1 year---> failiure ---> death.

I puke of the idea that intelligence is constant. That what i have been given, i must live with it my whole life. I'm not just a number out of the lottery.