Are you happy that you have autism? Be Honest

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17 Sep 2010, 9:41 pm

I felt better after I self diagnosed myself with AS but it still gets me into a deep state of depression now that I am in contact with the real world and realize that I am alone.... I almost committed suicide yesterday so that should explain the level at which I am in life is not even happiness nor depression about having autism other people's treatment. I am happy that autism actually allows me to live in a different world where I can find some happiness....



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17 Sep 2010, 9:53 pm

No, i was depressed before. Now im depressed and feel retarded or something just to add it up.



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17 Sep 2010, 10:06 pm

I was happy that I was not crazy but have Aspergers. But I would rather be normal.


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17 Sep 2010, 10:06 pm

No, my impairments/deficits cause me a lot of pain and I'm depressed more often than not. While, for the most part I am comfortable with myself, others simply aren't, and that, more than anything is incredibly saddening. Having nobody to really talk to is painful, having your own family still not understand you after 29 years is painful... All my life I'm akin to a fish out of water, suffocating and flopping around on the wooden dock with a hook in its mouth. I need this oxygen to breathe, but getting it from the air is just isn't working out all too well.


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17 Sep 2010, 10:22 pm

Absolutely not.


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17 Sep 2010, 11:05 pm

When I add it all up, it's a definite yes.



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17 Sep 2010, 11:07 pm

Yes.

And that is absolutely honest.

Due to my autism, I've been kicked out of school, fired from jobs, locked up in a mental ward, suffered bullying and child abuse. I have very few friends and those I have I see less than once a month. I've been unable to communicate. I've had meltdowns so severe I can't remember what happened except that I "woke up" with bruises (and no, they weren't seizures). I've never had a boyfriend, will never marry, will never have a normal life. I don't have a car and I can't work. I'm living far below the poverty line.

Why the paradox? Well... I don't think unhappy autistic people are unhappy because they're autistic. I think they're unhappy for any of the many reasons that people in general can be unhappy. And I think that everyone has problems in life--just because my problems can sometimes be traced back to autism doesn't mean that I must necessarily be less happy than someone whose problems can sometimes be traced back to being NT.

I'm happy to be autistic because it's part of who I am. It gives me a chance to help people. I don't mind being on the outside of society.

What did make me unhappy was depression. While I was depressed, if I had known I had autism I probably would have blamed the autism for my unhappiness; but I would have been wrong. In reality, the problem was that I was under incredible stress and didn't have much useful activity to occupy me. I was feeling useless and under extreme pressure; depression was the natural result.


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17 Sep 2010, 11:44 pm

To be honest, yes.


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17 Sep 2010, 11:49 pm

The truth is overwhelming all of you.



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17 Sep 2010, 11:51 pm

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18 Sep 2010, 1:28 am

I'm happy with who I am.



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18 Sep 2010, 1:40 am

Most of the time, yes. I feel like my AS makes me more intelligent and focussed than the general population. I don'tmind being different but I don't like pretending to be NT for most people. I also don't like some of the social issues that it presents but I know my limitations and I know that it's a part of who I am. I don't feel like I'm diseased but I wish that other people saw AS the way I see it, so that I could open up to them without being judged as "disabled" or "weird" or "antisocial".


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18 Sep 2010, 2:09 am

Absolutely.



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18 Sep 2010, 6:53 am

Yes I am. I'm not like the other girls, because I have AS, according to my mom. I agree. It's good for me!



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18 Sep 2010, 6:58 am

Nope, I'm not happy with it. I'm indifferent for the most part, but sometimes I hate that it's there.


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